Celebrate theDivineFeminine (May the Month of Mary)

To all my beautiful perfect women and girls on the Planet. My sisters. I hope you know how loved you are, how powerful you are, how perfect you are, how whole and complete you are just as you are. May you find solace in knowing that this a time for us to rejoice, to come together, to stand fully in our soul’s truth.

I have a connection with the Divine Mother and although I thought this connection began with my awakening, this connection has always been there. On so many occasions the room would fill with the smell of roses, the way her loving presence showed me how I was already embodying the Divine, the way she whispered ” Go within and you will find purpose”. I would be awoken at night to her speaking to me, bringing me from fear to love in a quickness. Her reassurance that everything will be okay and to always remember “You are my daughter and I Love you more than you know”. Her presence is powerful and over flowing with unconditional love. We are all connected to her and many other powerful, loving Goddesses, Masters, women that have pathed the way for us now. To fully embody what it is to be a beautiful Divine Being in form.

I used to say the Lord’s prayer every night and at some point it began to dawn on me that as I did the sign of the cross “in the name of the father, the son and the holy spirit” the Mother was missing??? This baffled me so I would add “in the name of the father , the son, the holy spirit and the Divine Mother”. I could feel a shift take place that brought up feelings around how women of the past were treated (seemed to be left out, or at least in the Catholic Religion that I grew up with, there is little mention of women). We all have a gift of intuition and as a woman if you feel shame around it, most likely you were considered very powerful and a threat due to your gifts of creativity, to using your inner knowing. Around this time last year I had past life experiences come up, of men coming after me, wanting to take my power away. Experiences of feeling and watching from the eyes of Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene as they watched beloved Jesus on the cross. I felt their pain, their sadness and saw through the eyes of Jesus as well as he watched his mother and his beloved watch his soul leave his body. When I asked, “Why am I seeing this?, how could I be seeing and feeling this?” I was told to stop crucifying myself. Stop beating myself up for my past, for who I am, all the guilt and shame I had built around being a feminine woman, around sex, around my body, around motherhood, in so many ways I was crucifying myself over and over and over again. If we are not aware of another way, another option than we do what we are conditioned to do but there is a place within us all that knows what is truth.

This is why it is so important to become conscious, to ask questions, to know what our motives are around our actions. Is is old programming, old teachings that taught us if we are in a woman’s body, we are lesser than? That taught us that there can’t be a healthy balance of both the masculine and feminine energy that is within all of us. Within each of us, we in form can embody both and celebrate both of these energies equally, as well as the gender we have taken on in this lifetime. All I know is as I become more and more aware, I can now look at my husband and celebrate his strengths and look at myself and celebrate mine as a woman.

I hope every women knows how worthy she is of love and can love herself with great grace, beauty and wisdom. And the hope that every man respects women and can see the great power she holds and the power we gain as we work together and not against each other.

Last year as I was doing a lot of inner healing a moment that I felt I didn’t know where to turn I prayed, the light began to get really bright and almost change color, as the room had a golden hue. I picked up a pen and began to write, my heart expanded so big I felt I was in the center of it and as I did I smelled roses. This is the message from Mother Mary that I received to help heal the inner child:

I want to release her of any fear and sadness by asking her Angels of the love and light to surround her with the light of pure Divine Love, to Zero her out of all that does not server her, all that does not belong to her, to allow her to breathe, with every in breath expanding the love within, directly connected to the purest form of love, bliss, joy.  Knowing this is the sweet spot, her birthright, to be able to connect directly to source, to connect with her higher power, surrounded and protected with pure Divine light at all times.  Until I can show her how to do this on her own to empower, cleanse and uplift her.  As her Divine Mother, she is released of all guilt, worry, shame, doubt, negativity, into the light to allow her Divine team of the light to dissolve all negativity, transmuted into pure positive loving energy.  Grounded in her truth of who she really is, a beautiful, confident, loving being of light herself, a diamond star that shines bright.

Are you living on Autopilot?

Audio from my inner guidance system regarding living on autopilot

Ask yourself this question; Am I living on autopilot? How often are you truly present? Do you pride yourself as being the ultimate multitasker? Juggling multiple things at once but always feeling in a state of chaos, stress, depleted and defeated. When did it become a badge of honor to live life this way? And we wonder why so many of us are in a constant state of panic and anxiety. Chasing one thing after another but never feeling like we are getting anywhere. On that hamster wheel and always ending up at the same unfulfilling place. It’s time to reevaluate our values and what is important to us. Our health? or pleasing the outside world? Showing the outside how “great” we are because we people please our way through life while inside we are dying to feel free, we want to say No sometimes but don’t know how to. How do we live with more ease, present in presence, with more peace?

Begin by really taking stock of one day and see how present you truly are (if that is too much begin by looking at one hour). And when you find yourself running around like a dog chasing it’s tail, stop, pause and breath. Learn to say “No, thank you” to things that are depleting you (“NO” is a full sentence, we do not always have to give a long drawn out explanation as to why we don’t want to go somewhere or do something that is only going to add more stress to our lives). The old narrative is changing to a more freeing one, where it is okay to put ourselves first without it feeling selfish, in fact it’s self care.

I lived in this state of chaos for so long that the Universe had to stop me, literally lost my shit, knocked me down, coulnd’t speak, didn’t know what the heck was going on, I became helpless, like a baby that had to be held and reminded that I am whole and complete just for being me, I am enough. If my children weren’t there to intervene and make a call to a family member I have no idea where I would be today. Don’t wait until the Universe knocks you down and gives you a wake up call that may be your last.

Begin saying yes to yourself, learn to love yourself, take time for self and get to know the true you.

Contact me for a healing session, to talk, or receive guidance from your highest aspect of self and guides. Go to the healing section on my site above to begin. Or you can text me at 407-914-4947 or email me at joyfullyawakebyvivianhawker@gmail.com to get started.

Get Heart Centered &Connect to the Intuitive Mind

In the unified field of consciousness that connects us all, through our free will we can choose love, peace and joy or fear, judgement and anger. Yes there are events, experiences in our life that lead us to feel emotions that have us feeling fearful constricted but in those moments how do we choose to perceive what is happening? Is it happening to us or for us? Are we looking to learn and grow or stay stuck in the fear? Our thoughts can spiral out of control playing out fear based stories but if we can take a moment drop into our hearts and lead from this space we can feel expanded.

Knowing now our emotions are very real and my belief is there is no right or wrong way to handle a situation. Sometimes very necessary to feel it, head on not run away from our feelings. They are showing us something, wanting us to ask, “why are you here again?” Wait, be still for a moment and listen for the answer. It’s when we pretend for to long and have no true connection to our truth that we put to the side, judge ourselves for not being tough enough, call ourselves cry babies, because we were told we should just get over things. Yes I do not think it serves to stay in fear of past events but if we can allow ourselves to feel, say I feel you, acknowledge, it can’t take hold of us in the way we have let in the past. Because we are all ascending, transforming, when we choose to not deal with our emotions this is an old paradigm that will not work anymore.

What I have been shown is everything I’ve pushed away avoided feeling and didn’t want to feel old emotions that surfaced and I was forced to face. As the veil gets thinner we may all be forced to face the things we pushed away so that we can finally live in a more heart centered way, where we allow our intuitive mind to do the thinking, our hearts because that is where it’s real. Our hearts do not lie, once we heal our broken heart we will feel that oneness, that connection to all.

Follow your intuition

Writing is one of the greatest ways I can express my creativity, it’s one of the ways I connect with the highest aspect of self. The way the words come out faster than I can write at times. I do a lot of inspired writing, some call it automatic writing. Where you allow the words to flow through you instead of trying to control what comes out. Through mindfulness, meditation and other tools and practices I have tapped into my gift of intuition, given the most beautiful and funny messages at times. And this is something everyone can do, in the beginning I suggest the best way to receive that free flow of inspired writing is right after meditation when you are still in your heart, centered and grounded. As I began my 11th journal this is what was written through me:

Here we go again, another book (journal)? This time I will have it all organized but they are my thoughts, feelings, revelations, messages, tools, meditations, affirmations, my sanity, how do I organize all of that and more? I called in “FOCUS” and heard a voice say “Are you ready to begin?”….I had to laugh because Focus was very….well…. FOCUSED! I hear, amongst other intuitive gifts so I can call in just about any part of me and probably hear, feel or sense that part that has been called on. Compiled all these pieces of self is “me”, in trying to figure out who I am, why I am the way I am, how did I transform from a person that made fun of people like me (judging in all kinds of ways) to now very aware, wanting, needing to know how to take these gifts, creativity, humor, energy and serve. Surrender, let go but also become the co-creator of my life while going with the flow. I hear “Read the books! To create yet another one and not have reviewed 1-10, C’mon, keep this one as the book of tools”.

Again I am clairaudient so I hear parts of me, as well as other sounds with my psychic hearing. But even if you can’t hear with your spiritual ear yet, you can feel, sense or know. Follow your inner GPS system, figure out how you receive that pure loving all knowing intuitive guidance. Do you feel relaxed, ask a question and the answer pops in your head right away, get a tingling feeling on the top of your head, through you body, (hairs on your arms stand up), feel your heart expand, feel inspired a moment of relaxed yet excitement like you have to jump into action. Sit still and breathe, ask your guides or highest self what would yes feel like for me and what does no feel like? Whether you realize it or not you are intuitive, we all are and however you receive your internal guidance, your “YES” when you are in flow, in alignment with all that is, your inner creative joyful, loving, all knowing genius within, when you are connected to the higher power within you, it is the light bulb switch that lights up energies and gives you your full body Yes! Follow it see where it takes you.

Highly Sensitive Person/Empath

This audio message I am sharing today was recorded as a private message to self but it is so important to bring more awareness to what an Empath or Highly Sensitive Person is and how if you don’t realize you are one you can begin to feel a little crazy because what you have been feeling may not be yours. This not only affects me but I am doing this for our children as well. There is a way to where this can be our greatest gift instead of feeling like a curse. I choose to see it as my greatest gift but to do that there are tools and practices that can help us to thrive in life. Ironically it’s 4:44 long, this is an Angel number and one that repeatedly comes up in life almost daily. I did not intentionally do that but love it when it happens.

Creative Intuitive Children

From a place within that I have tapped into, a connection to the creative source of all that is, my creative genius, my higher power. Not just for a chosen few but all can do this. As I continue to cultivate joyfullyawake, a way of being, a community, a unity of all to sustain more love and joy. I will show others how to do the same by loving ourselves and connecting to our greatest gift our intuition.
It begins by choosing to say yes, I’m ready to remember who I really am and why I am here. We all have purpose, we are all so creatively gifted in whatever way that shows up for you.
You can work as a toll booth attendant and be shining your light using your smile, your gifts to brighten someone else’s day (no offense to toll both workers in the world).
Our children are all gifted and came here to teach us how to love unconditionally but many adults had children out of a need to feel loved back. Perhaps they felt a lack of love as a child and now we have wounded parents that need to learn to love themselves and parent themselves. And children that are confused as to what they have done wrong, feeling a disconnect and a lack of love and self-worth as well.
Change has to happen, take a small step and say yes to yourself. As you cultivate a relationship with self it ripples to the people around you. Meaning your children, spouses all those you love will watch, feel and see you as a role model and change organically plays out. The vibration you raise in yourself will raise that in others, this is a Universal law.
We all think it is someone else who needs to change but it is time that we all take a look in the mirror. And I know some have had really difficult childhoods for that I’m sorry. As an empath even if I did not have the traumatic experience personally I took on others pain as my own but I know now I serve better by setting boundaries using my gifts to help without taking on another’s energy completely.
I now realize that I can set healthy boundaries, as children and many adults we are not aware of this unless we are taught, so we may take on our teachers, parents, friends, coworkers, grandparents, society in general’s pain and suffering. And we question why so many children act out, but yet punish them in ways that fosters this painful energy within by withholding recess, by making them sit still not able to express what is going on, by refusing creative fun ways of expression, so they suffer in silence and the cycle continues.
I believe we need a change across the board, it begins with the adults, schools, we need to be open to the children in the world now and the new children coming in as these children are the way showers, the earth angels, the light workers of the future. With great empathy, comes sensitivity and the price of sensitivity is…..well sensitivity this means a new system of teaching to add in mindfulness, learning how to center ourselves, learning to have more compassion for one another and using our gift of intuition. Learning how to love ourselves, teaching that our self-worth and perception of self is one of the most valuable lessons to know.
The fight fire with fire method only adds to disaster, we must begin to teach all traits are to be celebrated and not put so many labels on children and people in general. We could thrive in a society that trusted and lead with their hearts, our greatest creators, inventors used their gift of intuition, sat in rooms for hours with their breath, expanding their minds to connect to the inspired brilliance that we see in so many things we use today.
Imagine where we could be if we allowed our children to use their natural gift of creating and didn’t try to stifle it by telling them their too loud; be quiet, or your to shy be more assertive. Our loud one’s could be our world leaders, our shy ones the greatest inventors and thinkers but we may never know because we taught them to be someone they aren’t.

Infinite Totality

unconditional-love-2When we can look at life as the infinite totality of limitless possibilities, knowing love itself is eternal, we can look at it as the journey it is. Every ending just means there is now a new beginning, like a circle, the circle of life that is always flowing never-ending, sometimes it may be difficult to see where one chapter ends and another begins but if we can look at every experience in our lives as an opportunity to grow and learn then we realize our life always has purpose. Even in times when maybe we have drifted away from that eternal love, from source, from our true purpose of living a joyful life full of love for ourselves to share this purpose with others to come together as a collective to raise each other up through creative abundance, through community, through an infinite supply of source energy; love, we are still on purpose. Energy is ever flowing and as Albert Einstein states “Energy cannot be created or destroyed it can only be changed from one form to another”.

So the journey itself is what life is all about, there is no ending. For even when we leave our physical bodies, our love still exist through the people in our lives, our spirit lives on perhaps to help those we leave behind to continue to learn the life lessons with the ultimate lesson being self-love, approval and acceptance. If we can’t love ourselves truly and care for ourselves it makes it difficult to truly love others from a place of authenticity, without condition because now we are tapping into our own energy and giving of ourselves completely feeling that this is love. We get lost in this false concept of love.

We are all conduits, a vehicle in which source moves and experiences life through us, so if source is infinite and we can wrap our minds around the concept that infinite source energy is ever-moving, ever-changing pure love that as we stay connected, we embody this pure love and allow source to shine through us, allowing us to share in love but knowing we are always connected to our infinite supply, so if we are feeling depleted, then we are using our own energy and are not allowing pure love in.

It is through fear that we lose that connection to source, that we begin to rely on our own strength rather than allowing source to channel through us in abundantly creative ways because we are scared that we are not in control of our own lives, at some point we were taught this or observed this behavior that became ingrained in us, that life is hard and we must push through it. Yes in our own suffering we can learn some of the greatest lessons but it is when we stay stuck in the suffering, in the past stories, stay stuck in fear that we stay the victim. Shadow work is a great way of healing as long as you can face it, learn from it and release it. So again it comes in the unlearning, uncovering of all the limiting beliefs that we picked up along the way, to allow our truest whole self to emerge and allow love in to be lead to follow the path of ease and flow, the path that exist with your name on it because that path is your birthright. Anything else that feels difficult is false. So surrender to love, be open to allowing and receiving the infinite creative abundance of pure source energy.

Feeling in Flow

Today I am so proud of myself, truly I feel intuitive inspiration flowing through me. Knowing I am a clear channel for pure love. As I continue to let go of the past to uncover who I have always been, feeling so connected to my spirit, the highest aspect of  myself. Feeling so much gratitude, blessed beyond words, expanded all because I said yes to putting in the time to love myself, to face my fears instead of pushing them away, connecting and listening to my heart, my intuition, my body. Through mirror work and simple tools we can live a life beyond our wildest dreams. It is through the little successes that I am finding have such a profound impact on the bigger picture.

Self love, approval and acceptance could be the answer to all our worldly problems. Go within, connect with source, choose love, expand your awareness and shift your perception, take action no matter how big or small towards living your birthright!

Intuition & God’s Presence

Art is an expression of ourselves, our world, our life.  I was feeling unsettled, as if I should be doing more, should be further along, knowing I was once again creating a false story. When I begin to feel this way I have gone back to picking up my paint brush to get in creative flow, a reminder of who I really am. I connect with art because there is no need for perfection, in some cases the imperfection in pieces is what makes it so perfect, so effortless, so easy. When I get out of my own way, I can allow myself to flow. When I see the vision in my mind and know exactly what it will look like but without a plan and as I paint sometimes the vision shifts, changes and that’s okay because I can feel the flow and go with it. I feel my highest self, the energy of joy, as the top of my head will tingle, feeling the full body YES, you are in bliss, in flow, not judging yourself, not doubting, just free-flowing. Why can’t it be like this all the time? (I hear my spirit ask), just allow me to take you by the hand and show you how. Trust, please now it’s now time to trust. Trust that you/we (your inner guidance system, your inner being) knows, that Source knows where you feel this loving presence most. (As I am typing I see light shining up from the keys, letting me know I’m in the presence of God right now). For anytime I am creating, I am being, enjoying life, I am in the presence of pure love and even in the times I am not I know God is still present, it just may not be as obvious because we are usually clouded by negative thoughts.

As we learn to trust our gift of intuition, given to us by God (I believe to make our lives easier) so we can communicate, feel and know this loving presence that guides us in a way that let’s us know you are not ever alone, I am with you and I’m here to help you embody pure love. Life is easier if you can let go and let God in, let love in. (This whole time it’s as if I am a stenographer except hearing a small, loving voice speak to me as I type). I have questioned this voice for way to long, I can no longer deny this voice I hear is the voice of God (and it shows up in many different ways, in ways that I will accept it and am willing to hear it and comes through everyone not just a chosen few). Even through difficult times, that same voice reminds me to breathe, I’m here, I’ve never left you, calls my name, sometimes may tell me things I don’t want to hear but know it’s what I need to hear. Our intuition, is this God….the light within that moves us in creative ways to lean towards love or one of the many ways that God connects, speaks, moves, feels, allows the energy of source to use us a vessel to allow pure love to shine through.