Rapid Change

The old, the new and the in between. As we continue to shed the old and integrate what seems to be the new which really is existence. The way in which we are being brought and guided to exist. To be human in “Being” not as much as doing but to be as we were always meant to be. To be is to know as I AM. I am love, worthy of love and not because of what I’ve done or who I’ve done and how I got here but who I Be here and now. Knowing I am worthy of love, able to embody my divinity as I am. This process can have us feeling many different ways. Some elated, some frustrated, clinging onto what was, trying to keep things the same but the energy is rapidly moving, creating change. It can feel disruptive, challenging and chaotic at times. Whatever it is you are experiencing, remember to be in the know, in the now, to have awareness, to be able to say I surrender, I don’t know or remember how to do this Universe, please help me. I allow you to lead me on this path my soul has chosen, to co-create directly with the creative source of all that is. Show me the way!

Then be open to allowing and receiving the guidance. Let go of the grips of control and allow. Stay grounded in your body, connected to the New Earth, centered within your heart space. Instead of things happening to us, imagine them happening through us. Prior to incarnation seeds were planted within and as we live life the seeds begin to burst and blossom. Certain experiences, pre-programmed, inevitable so try to relax into it. Try to enjoy the ride. So when I say surrender, this does not mean give up, it just means let it happen. Allow yourself to be free from exerting unnecessary energy. In fact the more you resist, the more what you don’t want may persist but when you relax, allow, observe, it is easier and we can even find love and enjoyment in moments that can have us feeling uneasy. If we just shift our perception and remember to begin our day by choosing love and open ourselves to receiving love by staying centered. Many of these experiences are a much needed necessary part of our self growth and discovery process.

Take advantage of the Full Moon Energies as they are here to assist and help you. Take a moment to sit, be quiet and allow the streams of light to enter in to assist, to uplift and help in your expansive evolutionary soul process.

Sound Healing Frequency

We are all shape shifting, with the way change is a constant in our lives. Rapid energy swirling all around, the Universe asking us to step it up. Not much that we have to do or that has to be done as we are being done whether we realize it or not. Change and new we all desired, especially since we are a culture of the instant, the “I want it right here and right now.” We asked for it, we pushed it forward and now we are in it and some may not know how to handle it. Making decisions can sometimes have us feeling our judgement is clouded, where do we turn when there are so many options. Options are good, aren’t they? Except now everywhere we turn there is a new way of eating, sleeping, meditating, working, parenting, sexing, relation-shipping, who is right? who is wrong? What do we choose? This is where we have to go within, otherwise we will get lost in a sea of options, sinking like a ship in decisions, constantly wondering did I make the right one.

Sometimes in this dualistic world we live in, we need to know what we truly want by having experiences that allow us to know the opposite of what we want. When we think about it whether we feel it works out or not, it is always working out. As long as we are not so attached to the outcome and believe this is the direction that is needed to take, our soul always knows and even then we still need to be shown what we don’t want to know what we do want.

So many ways to help soothe and heal us during this time of transition. One of the many ways I have found is sound, song, mantras. Human vocal cords, allow the sound to radiate, uplift, heal. Within all is a wave, a current when connected to the frequency (call it God frequency, Angelic frequency, a higher frequency of love, of light). The light connectors, the neurons in the brain begin to fire off receptors and are catching the light, they are in tune and tuning into a frequency that is meant for them. The act of pushing can feel unsure and create resistance, the art of allowing allows the energy of receiving to open up. We become the transmission and transmitters, dialed into the right station for healing, for joy. Meditation, yoga, breath work allows to open the pathways within us to allow our light to flow, fluid, clearing blockages of fear, stuck emotion, things of our past.

As the body and the Universe work in conjunction with the heart, with spirit, it is like the perfect sounding tuning fork of energy goes through the spine (as above so below), our cells, our system to regenerate and make new healthy cells and make our already healthy cells more vital and vibrant. As this occurs our frequency raises our vibration, we ascend into more love and more joy. We can get to a place that even as we are just living, being present, the work is being done internally. As we slow down in these moments be aware of the breath, feel the light as it vibrates within and all around, it reverberates out to your surroundings to find your vibrational match and the Universe brings forth synchronization through events, people and situations.

Going within is not new age woo woo stuff, there is truth, wisdom and science to back it up. But if you do not believe, try it for yourself. Give yourself the challenge of incorporating Kirtan Kriya (11 to 60 minutes a day for 40 days). I chose Kirtan Kriya because it is a super easy mantra and this is how I began my journey of self discovery. This is the Kundalini meditation practice that shifted me in ways I never thought possible. The shifts subtle at first and then BAM it’s miracles all over the place.

Kirtan Kriya (Short 11 minute practice by Nirinjan Kaur) There are also longer versions that can be found on youtube and online.

(I’ve included resources to further read about the benefits of Kirtan Kriya and why it works from other resourceful sites)

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/prime-your-gray-cells/201606/yoga-and-kirtan-kriya-meditation-bolster-brain-functioning

https://www.3ho.org/kirtan-kriya

Transition- Universal Law Of One

Listening to my heart, feeling still, being held in a container, a bubble of transition, positive change, feeling a positive shift, like my soul just wants me to glide, fly, be free of old habits that have had my mind full and spinning. Like the new is full of ease, everything can flow, it doesn’t have to feel or be so difficult. Moving into my lane, where I fit in the puzzle, it may feel like a freeze frame but internally much is taking place to align and realign like a walnut who’s shell has been cracked to allow the perfection of what is inside to show itself. The Divine perfection and wisdom, as am I. I, perfect me is here right now. It has been layers of removing, heavy lifting at times, all the pain, hardship, scarcity, lack mentality, fear around everything, stripped away to uncover, me the core of the perfect nut, perfect fruit. Cells changing, DNA Activation, transforming.

A process that has to be surrendered to, to get to the prize, the diamond within the dark Cole, under and within all that feels and seems dark, transforms into something radiant, beautiful and light filled. We are all that and more. I, AM here now. A process indeed, perhaps patience before reaction, take a step, observe, feel, if it feels good keep going, if it doesn’t hold off. Keep chipping away at the old old dated, let the Universe do it for you, allow help in, not alone in this process ever done. Call it Angels, Spirit, God, Universal Energy, it, the perfection that exists, the presence, that is the essence, it is you and in you and in everything as are you as I connected it, it is connected to me and I connected to all.

Strength, the core and the magnitude of the energy field radiates a trillion times out, love, pure love, not manufactured fractured love but perfect love, ripples, radiates and shines. Allow the process to unfold, the golden nugget that is you already. With love in our hearts and in yours, your soul, one soul, one heart, one love that is the Universal law of One. Do not over estimate what another can show you when it comes to your life and stop underestimating what you already know within. And what your perfect soul has been guiding you to. Challenges arise, are just your soul realigning you back onto your path. Learn, Grow, Live, Love!

Shadows of Codependency

How does keeping someone small empower you? Are you afraid if they do not “need” you, they may leave you? How do you manipulate or are manipulated by allowing another to control your self esteem? We say we want to heal and want others to heal, to help themselves, but what is the runny story of disempowerment in your family? The judgements we make are like dark spells we cast on one another. When we need approval from certain people they hold a power over us. Have you ever said “I feel like they have a hold over me”? Become conscious of who and where you are are giving your power away. How are you unconsciously making someone else’s dreams and desires seem insignificant in hopes they do not flourish? Out of fear they may know something you do not, out of the fear they may make it and no longer depend on you.

If you are a person that is consciously manipulating others to control, knowingly taking another’s power away by belittling, chipping away at their self esteem until they are like a fragile child that feels they are never worthy of anything other than the struggle life throws at them. We make choices that have consequences, some call it Karma but having to live with yourself, looking at yourself in the mirror is punishment in its self. I’ve seen how it eats at a person’s soul, how it affects both the giver and the taker (receiver). It’s not pretty, it’s a shadow of horrific proportions.

Break the spell of codependency by becoming aware, by becoming conscious. Where in your life have you felt blocked and have tried everything, what is getting in the way? Where did this cycle and pattern of sabotage begin? Go back, look at your relationships, most times people are not doing this with awareness and mean no ill intent. This could be a contract made prior to coming into the physical, an area where you can learn and grow. And as you learn, heal and empower yourself these contracts can be broken. So you no longer need outside approval. The approval you are searching for can always be found within YOU! Self love, acceptance and approval is so empowering and once you have it, no one can take your power away again!

Subconcious Beliefs

I have taken a moment to step back even more, to dive deep and do the much needed inner work, a time to really slow down (I didn’t know it was even possible to slow down even more), to be with my family, to continue to exist, be and in this beingness I have found that I am whole and complete. That despite the break from “working outside of the home”, a lot of internal work has taken place. There is no manual to life but when we connect with the true self we are our greatest guide, we can remember our truth and unlearn the beliefs that no longer hold true, no longer work for us, we tap into our intuition and allow The Universal Energy to guide us (knowing now we are the Universe).

I have felt the Universe within, the collective, the ups and downs, the sadness, anger, fear as well as the love, the expansion and through a lot of self love and radical self care have experienced the integration of the Ego, the falling away of the false belief system. Can step back and be the compassionate witness. The ascension process that I’ve heard so much about has literally played out within me from descension to working my way up. I have ascended from inner pits of hell the ultimate fear to heaven the ultimate love. I have never read the bible but my understanding is we are “it”, we are the stories, the stories being metaphors for how we ascend, how we live life, to be the co-creators, the masters of our own lives connected to source. As we all are taken on this journey through ascension there may be some fearful emotions that come up, life may be difficult, or you can ride the wave surrendering the whole way knowing all is here and showing up in your life for you to help you.

Either way, now I understand when I was told by my higher self, the highest aspect of self, my guides and Angels (which are really all layers and aspects of me, of self here to help on this journey of remembering) that I am a seed planter, a way shower, a light worker. I realize I am exactly where I need to be so I can help someone that may be a day behind me, a month, year, etc to help bring guidance and healing into their lives. Realizing with every channelled message written or spoken there is a healing frequency that comes with it. I was told I would heal with my messages, sound, color, in many different ways. But it wasn’t until my breakthrough in May that I now understand what that means. In the midst of it I was told to go to my blog, as I was in extreme fear I began to read and something amazing began to happen, I began to lift up, raise my frequency, I was wrapped in an orb of light. I was being shown part of why I am here now.

The attached audio was recorded a couple of months ago (after a lunar eclipse) but goes so perfectly with this message I am ready to share now. Since then there is so much I want to share about how I have gained so much more inner strength, feel amazing, balanced, free and joyful (and you wouldn’t believe some of the stuff that has taken place, it’s like a test from the Universe to show me once I really truly love myself, have a solid consistent practice that includes Kundalini Yoga, amongst other tools and really committed to my wholeness, the outer world stuff can’t touch me, it no longer rocks me because I know the truth of who I am, my power and my worth).

Thank you for being a part of my journey. I love you! So much more to come. Exciting!!!!

Celebrate theDivineFeminine (May the Month of Mary)

To all my beautiful perfect women and girls on the Planet. My sisters. I hope you know how loved you are, how powerful you are, how perfect you are, how whole and complete you are just as you are. May you find solace in knowing that this a time for us to rejoice, to come together, to stand fully in our soul’s truth.

I have a connection with the Divine Mother and although I thought this connection began with my awakening, this connection has always been there. On so many occasions the room would fill with the smell of roses, the way her loving presence showed me how I was already embodying the Divine, the way she whispered ” Go within and you will find purpose”. I would be awoken at night to her speaking to me, bringing me from fear to love in a quickness. Her reassurance that everything will be okay and to always remember “You are my daughter and I Love you more than you know”. Her presence is powerful and over flowing with unconditional love. We are all connected to her and many other powerful, loving Goddesses, Masters, women that have pathed the way for us now. To fully embody what it is to be a beautiful Divine Being in form.

I used to say the Lord’s prayer every night and at some point it began to dawn on me that as I did the sign of the cross “in the name of the father, the son and the holy spirit” the Mother was missing??? This baffled me so I would add “in the name of the father , the son, the holy spirit and the Divine Mother”. I could feel a shift take place that brought up feelings around how women of the past were treated (seemed to be left out, or at least in the Catholic Religion that I grew up with, there is little mention of women). We all have a gift of intuition and as a woman if you feel shame around it, most likely you were considered very powerful and a threat due to your gifts of creativity, to using your inner knowing. Around this time last year I had past life experiences come up, of men coming after me, wanting to take my power away. Experiences of feeling and watching from the eyes of Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene as they watched beloved Jesus on the cross. I felt their pain, their sadness and saw through the eyes of Jesus as well as he watched his mother and his beloved watch his soul leave his body. When I asked, “Why am I seeing this?, how could I be seeing and feeling this?” I was told to stop crucifying myself. Stop beating myself up for my past, for who I am, all the guilt and shame I had built around being a feminine woman, around sex, around my body, around motherhood, in so many ways I was crucifying myself over and over and over again. If we are not aware of another way, another option than we do what we are conditioned to do but there is a place within us all that knows what is truth.

This is why it is so important to become conscious, to ask questions, to know what our motives are around our actions. Is is old programming, old teachings that taught us if we are in a woman’s body, we are lesser than? That taught us that there can’t be a healthy balance of both the masculine and feminine energy that is within all of us. Within each of us, we in form can embody both and celebrate both of these energies equally, as well as the gender we have taken on in this lifetime. All I know is as I become more and more aware, I can now look at my husband and celebrate his strengths and look at myself and celebrate mine as a woman.

I hope every women knows how worthy she is of love and can love herself with great grace, beauty and wisdom. And the hope that every man respects women and can see the great power she holds and the power we gain as we work together and not against each other.

Last year as I was doing a lot of inner healing a moment that I felt I didn’t know where to turn I prayed, the light began to get really bright and almost change color, as the room had a golden hue. I picked up a pen and began to write, my heart expanded so big I felt I was in the center of it and as I did I smelled roses. This is the message from Mother Mary that I received to help heal the inner child:

I want to release her of any fear and sadness by asking her Angels of the love and light to surround her with the light of pure Divine Love, to Zero her out of all that does not server her, all that does not belong to her, to allow her to breathe, with every in breath expanding the love within, directly connected to the purest form of love, bliss, joy.  Knowing this is the sweet spot, her birthright, to be able to connect directly to source, to connect with her higher power, surrounded and protected with pure Divine light at all times.  Until I can show her how to do this on her own to empower, cleanse and uplift her.  As her Divine Mother, she is released of all guilt, worry, shame, doubt, negativity, into the light to allow her Divine team of the light to dissolve all negativity, transmuted into pure positive loving energy.  Grounded in her truth of who she really is, a beautiful, confident, loving being of light herself, a diamond star that shines bright.

Staying Balanced/Grounded (1st chakra: Root Chakra)

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We have many chakras within our body and in our subtle energy bodies as well. The seven main chakras, when balanced will have us feeling great joy, empowerment, love for self and others, feel connected to each other, feel in flow, life can feel easier, synchronicities are easily spotted like the Universe is constantly connecting the dots for us and bringing forth what we need next at any given moment. Abundance in all areas of life is felt, our awareness is broadened, we can take moments to pause and not be so reactive, feel a sense of total wellbeing, whole and complete. We can breathe long deep breaths, feel relaxed, grounded, energized and just have the total mind, body, soul connection in perfect coherence.

Think of our seven main chakras like spinning wheels within the body and the spine is what connects them all (the central location/ central nervous system). Imagine a tube of water of light that encases the spine that is in the center of our being it drops into the earth and connects to the light at the core of the earth and goes through the body out through the crown of our heads up above and connects to the light of the heavens to the source of all creation. This tube of light and the water that flows wants to be free flowing a constant, peaceful movement like a river. If we are out of balance it means the water is either stagnant, moving like a tidal wave, has a rock or boulder stuck blocking the water as if now a dam has been created that is about to blow because the pressure of the water has built up. The water needs to be constantly changing, moving because energy is constantly changing.

I never truly thought about how energy worked until the Universe began to show me how we are all energy, energetic beings. To many that have a difficult time understanding how can energy healing works? This is my attempt to try to explain it and our emotional centers, our chakra system in the simplest terms possible. We are made of mainly water, water being one of the greatest conduits for energy to flow. So I use a water analogy quite a bit. And if you compare our emotions to the storms, the stillness, the peace, the beauty of different bodies of water such as the ocean, lakes and rivers you can see how we are not different from nature but intertwined and very much part of what we see in nature and the cosmos every day. When a storm is brewing inside of us, we can also see how that is being played out in weather and what is taking place on a broader scale and going on collectively. There is so much that we know instinctively without having to go outside for our information because all our wisdom and greatest knowledge is within us.

Much of what I write is from experience, is my inner wisdom just working through me to get the messages out. To help others understand that there is not just a select few that can tap into this, we all can. Just sometimes we need to weed out the garbage first and allow our life force energy the chance to work through us to create the lives we always wanted, to feel free from fear and not let it get the best of us. We all have the capability to self heal and I have experienced this and witnessed it first hand. As an energy healer, I am not healing anyone I am just holding space as I witness God/Source heal and awaken your inner healer.

The Root Chakra is our first chakra (it’s our home base) at the base of our spine, the legs and feet. Our root chakra helps us to stay grounded, think of your self standing like a tree. If the trunk of the tree is rotting, weak and the roots are not well nourished the rest will not grow, it is not stable. The root is what gives us our stability, helps us feel safe, secure, a feeling of walking on stable ground. If we do not have a solid foundation than things can crumble literally and metaphorically in our being and in our life. Our root and lower chakras are where our family stuff resides. So if there are undealt with emotions, fears, insecurities, than unfortunately we can feel like the world is against us, have lack of trust in the outside world which really is lack of trust in ourselves. Fear and old negative family beliefs are running our lives. When you begin to strengthen your root chakra, the base and foundation of your being and your life with flourish like a well rooted and grounded tree.

When activated we can walk our talk, get on our life’s true purpose and path, create our own unique life experiences from a grounded place. So stay grounded, go outside walk barefoot in the grass, sit at the base of a tree, go into the ocean, play in the sand, take deep breaths and most importantly begin to take notice of the unwanted patterns that may stem from your families beliefs that perhaps they taught without knowing why (inherited unwanted family patterns) and if it doesn’t hold true to you then begin to create your own belief system, one that feels authentic to you. Write and journal your fears, insecurities, where your lack of self worth may stem from, old childhood wounds that you shoved deep, get rid of them.

Acknowledge they are there because most likely they are showing up in difficult ways whether you like it or not. Take time to meditate on them, use quiet time to breathe through these painful moments and memories. It can feel scary to face them but I have learned that if we don’t they will continue to show up in uncomfortable ways. When we make space for the pain, we can then release it so we are not constantly living in panic, fear and chaos (not knowing when it will show up). I meditate but realized recently that with intention during meditation I asked for my pain and sadness to show up in those moments during meditation so I could acknowledge them, allow them to surface at that time with the intention to let it go. This way I created the space for the pain so it wasn’t showing up during inconvenient times, like spending time with friends, at work in the middle of a meeting. Or out of the blue having panic attacks because again this part of us just wants acknowledgement and our bodies want us to be healthy, it wants us to heal and is trying to let us know now is the time. Isn’t it nice that you can actually make that time rather than it taking over you.

I love Reiki energy healing because it works to rid the body on many different levels of old stagnant, stuck energy and allows our life force energy to free flow the way it is meant to. If you are feeling stuck, contact me to schedule a session.

Resurrection & Rebirth

Thinking of Easter, as I have never before truly thought of what it means to me prior to my own “Resurrection” last year. For most Easter is the celebration of the resurrection of Christ.

As we are in Spring, a time where all that dies comes back to life, during Natures slumber, rest and transformation, what is taking place under the surface, deep within seedlings doing their thing, caterpillars going through metamorphosis. All that is displayed, blooming and is shown on the level of Nature is what organically and naturally happens within and through us. Many are going or have gone through a death and rebirthing process to uncover our truest nature.

Jesus’ resurrection a metaphor of what is happening within and all around us to rise above and bring a new, a new perspective, creation, action plan. We are all being called in our own unique way to Resurrect.

I Celebrate me

Today I celebrate myself, my kindness, my big heart, my quirks, my goofiness, my creativity, my thirst to uncover the answers to the big questions (my inquisitive mind), the fact that I follow my heart more than the Ego’s limiting rapid stream of thoughts that are untrue. I celebrate my gifts of connecting to a higher power, my intuition, to Angels, that I can clearly hear, see, feel and know that there is more that exist than what most can sense.

I celebrate as I walk outside and stumble because I am too busy looking up at the sky, the birds, trees, the clouds, the twinkling of lights as the energy of the Universe shows itself to me, knowing that I am powerful. My energy has turned lights on, has made the power go out, has created color all around me, in the different shades of the loving compassionate color of my aura that is pink, that I am able to have soul connections, feel the unconditional love flow through me. I know without a doubt there is more to life than what most can see, I have been fortunate to reconnect with grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, friends, all I had to do was go within and get into my heart and from that space anything is possible.

I celebrate me. My genius, my love for all, the time I have taken to heal old shadows and know it is okay to feel. I love to feel joy but I also love a good cry, so I celebrate all parts of me as well as my emotions that I came here to feel and heal. I make a promise to do my best, to not play small but stand tall in my truth, the true self in my light. I will no longer dim my light because I make other’s uncomfortable, because perhaps they are not there yet, in fact for those I turn on the flood flights to shine even brighter. Excited for their awakening, so that they can see the world with the same love and wonderment that I have been awoken to.

Shine your light

As we enter into new energies, upgrades of light activations, manifestation, centered within the heart, allow to receive as well as let go and release. Allow this new light, codes of awakening to enter in, like a ribbon of light that fills you up and expands all around you. Be the light that you are in human form. Shine your light. If you are in a feeling of discomfort in your life, know these energies and feelings are coming up to be released. As we are all moving into Unity, loving concouisness within the heart of God, of Gaia Mother Earth, stand in your truth, feel your truth, the truth will prevail, will rise and as it does you rise up above the hardship of duality but know to be human is to feel the duality at times, to do the shadow work as well as the light work. Where there is darkness let light shine on it, that needs to be let go for once and for all. Not to say you will never feel sadness again or pain, but we enter into a time where theses emotions and feelings will heal at a much rapid pace. So allow the light to shine in, through and all around you. As now is the time to embody true compassion, true love, true joy, to feel and embody your divinity. With lots of love always!