April 2020 Card Reading

Messenger of Air- Opinions informed by experience, adherence to dogma, allegiance to a way of thinking or acting, a learned response, subconscious programming, and swift reactions or responses.

The Element of Air has to do with the mind and how we have been programmed to certain belief systems and thought patterns. The Messenger is the catalyst for change and responds to situations and the need for transformation. This holds so true for where we have been and how we are a product of this old thinking. We are now able to broaden our perspective by quickly moving, evolving and ensuring our actions are for the highest good where positive outcomes are assured. “I am reacting to a situation from my past. I have to think about whether I want to do things the old way or respond differently this time.” “I can adapt a new way of thinking and behaving.” We are truly being asked to question all that we have been taught and told right now. To be able uncover what is the truth.

Fool- Enthusiasm

This where we are now. Being asked to trust our intuitive nature, our inner guidance which can never steer us wrong. This will not always follow the path of logic, in fact we are being asked to take a spiritual approach to what is happening in our lives and sometimes that can seem impractical. When this card shows up, it is time to take risk and trust that with faith, anything is possible. Spirit will reveal the signs and symbols along the way and we just need to be open. “I am meant to experience this regardless of where I travel”. Even though it seems as though the world is coming to an end we are on this journey together and it is just beginning. Trust.

Page of Fire- Enthusiastic action, adventurousness, venturing forth, beginning a project, acting on a new idea.

I love this card as it continues to tell the story of where we are headed. The Page card represents new beginnings and change and the Fire Element is the action that we have taken that has lead us to where we are headed (the result of our actions). This card tells me that we are venturing forth to our truest desires in life that are in alignment with our true nature. We are ready to serve our highest purpose aligned with our higher selves. This will not look like what we have always done in the past or what we were told to do but truly a new beginning guided by our co-creation with Spirit. “I am finding my purpose as I take the first step into something new”.

(The Good Tarot by Colette Baron-Reid).

Dark Night of the Soul

As I come up to the 2 year mark after my Dark Night of the Soul experience, the Divine guidance I receive is “share the experience”. No more tip toeing around, people are being awoken and some may not make it through unless they know what they are experiencing. Although very difficult, it really is the biggest blessing in disguise and when some of the most profound transformations take place. I compare it to a caterpillar going through it’s many stages of becoming a butterfly. It can not be stopped, otherwise this Divine intervention will not allow your wings to break free from the cocoon and the beautiful butterfly may never fully emerge into her greatness. It’s when we descend into the darkness so the light can be shined upon it. To fully heal our shadows, like an initiation into another layer of our truth. Out of this most uncomfortable experience we are shown the Truth, so our soul can fully emerge and integrate to stay in alignment on our path into our life’s mission. It is the death of the false self (some call it the Ego) to allow the soul to fully integrate and union with God. During this integration process, everything emerges and can feel like one disaster after another where old lifeless patterns are resurfacing again and again so we can stop the B.S. and exam our lives with a fine tooth comb.

Our soul will no longer allow the excuses, will no longer allow us to play small and if we do, we shall not sulk in a corner and feel pity or play the victim any longer. We must accept where we are and who we are. Our soul knows the power we hold within and needs things to be shaken up to wake us out of this sleep walking path that we’ve been on. It is such a bizarre thing to go through and for many this Shamanic initiation process in it’s realness, are shown the mystical parts of life, where we have to stop asking “how did that just happen?”, sometimes we need to accept the miracles of life. Accept that there is higher power greater than us, through true surrender. When we can fully fall to our knees and say “Dear God, I don’t know how to do this”. Which really was the only way I personally was able to get through this process, when I stopped fighting, when I stopped running and stopped hiding and faced the demons. I am in the process of writing about this experience, as part of my creation and to help those going through this spiritual crisis from being diagnosed as a psychological one. More and more people are being possessed by fear so that we can move through it and emerge into the loving, compassionate beings we truly are. As we are all undergoing a massive awakening to heal as the collective to remember the Oneness of Unity Consciousness. The poem below puts the experience in it’s simplest form (I wrote this while deep in the healing process after a period of what most would call psychosis but was really was my awakening. I was in and out of different realities, dimensions, living life on both sides and realize now I was being shown what we are all going through and what is to come).

Dark of the Soul
Ocean waves moving in motion like our never-ending crashing emotions, smashing against the tide when we don’t trust our inner guide,
Everywhere I go, nowhere to hide from the anger and disappointment that I feel inside, the resentment that arises from memories when I felt I didn’t have a voice or a choice.

Would not, could not speak up and out for myself,
At work, at home, it seems everywhere I turn, carefully walking on eggshells, as slowly pieces inside of me began to chip away at all my dreams and desires until I completely lost my way.
Ungrounded, astounded by the tearful, fearful person in the mirror who has lost her natural state to want to create.
Job-less, car-less, emotion-less, devotion-less…….a sad feeling of emptiness.

STOP….Breathe, take a moment to be present, face this fear, do not give it any more power and do not allow all that self-abusive chatter to get louder and louder.
Have I really lost everything or have I just began?
Remembering who I really am.

Through strength, faith and true desire to create, remembering I came here to thrive not just survive.
Live for today and a better tomorrow, leave all the self-doubt and abuse for a positive attitude and a life of gratitude.
I believe in myself, for within is the pure love, truth, the light of my soul, my inner spirit that chose to live Heaven on Earth
With A dream, A desire, beyond expansion with passion and fire.

Planetary Shift 2020

The major shift continues to take place across the planet now.  As we have been telling you to prepare for the planetary change by letting go and allowing. Now is the time for a major shift in humanity, a shift in perception, opening people’s awareness, to come together as the collective consciousness. To understand the oneness, you feel the shift and this shift is taking place worldwide. The great release, the great purge of negative energy, energetic emotions, as it is time for the way showers, the teachers, the light workers, the spiritual leaders of the world to take action, to shine their light. To bring humanity together in peace, love, compassion, as your planet needs it now in order for humanity to progress collectively to begin the ripple effect of uplifting out of the darkness and into the light. Remember it begins with you, as you ascend, as you connect directly to divine source energy, the uplifting begins. You are powerful, full of love, compassion. These messages are much-needed now to help the seekers, non-seekers, the one’s that are not yet aware, the one’s that are now being awoken, as we help you to show you the way, you help others.

You must trust, have faith, believe in a better way, to remember who you really are, releasing the limiting beliefs, deep within the subconscious.  Connect to pure source, to bring back the truth of who humanity truly is.  For now is the time and it begins with you, beautiful loving being of light, it’s time for more and more people to be of service to others in a loving compassionate way. And as the wave begins collectively you all rise above out of darkness, density, negativity and into the light, beauty and truth.  Trust, have faith and stand in your truth, let go of the limiting beliefs for collectively the planet is ready for a change. Believe it can be done, help others and show them the way. Call upon us but remember to listen for the guidance within.

Remember all shall pass, the heaviness, the deep purge, once fully released is vibrancy, God connection, clarity, light filled, celebration of life. Through this healing process of humanity, compassion on a deeper level for one another will collectively be shown, be felt, move into the heart, more thinking from the heart, that will uplift and bring togetherness, to feel the oneness, to remember the truth, to know through a new awareness all is well. The falsehood of what is from the past, the false of old beliefs will shift the perception collectively to speak up, speak out, feel the presence of love more easily. People are ready for great change. Be ready, stay heart centered, stand in your truth of who you have always been and there will be hope for a better today, a better tomorrow.

Trust

We are being asked to trust. A message from the Angels and Guides!

Trust and have faith in our creator, in the Universe. Everything happens in Divine Order and Divine timing. Always trust that you are being guided towards and onto the path of your purpose, of your divine mission. We will make sure you see the signs and symbols towards the next steps, towards your dreams and desires. We are always with you, guiding you and loving you. We want what is best for you, for it begins with you, your light, your love and how you spread and shine that light upon others.

Trust in yourself, trust your intuition, your psychic senses, for as you can tell they are blossoming more and more everyday. Opening up to other realms. Release any fear you may have regarding this process, it’s only love that we want you to focus on. Love and joy is what your true purpose is, your mission is to share that love and joy with others. It is what will heal your planet, it is what will keep each other going, humanity as a whole. We are all one, each person has an inner light, yours my dear shines extremely bright for we know it begins with you. Keep going within, connect with source, we will continue to connect with you and give you the messages that you ask for but trust and have faith the answers are within you.

Follow your gut feelings in taking your next steps, as that gut feeling is information we have put there to guide you, a download of information that is within. Trust and have faith and you will feel the life of your dreams. Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now, We love you, We love you, We love you.

One last thing, anytime you feel the urge to create, trust that urge, it us nudging you, have confidence that your messages are great!

Transformation

Energy is always moving, transforming, morphing, breaking down, shaken up, constantly changing. In order for major change to occur sometimes the thing, person, habit, pattern, idea, must fall apart and break down to be rebuilt a new. Many spiritual seekers feel the grace and glory of the joy filled love and light but as a world as we know it has begun to crash down, what will feel like struggle, hurt, tearing apart and even despair is actually part of the process. Neccessary in order to change. The human nervous system is strong and perfect but has been made fragile by the things that have weakened it, such as modified foods, environment, chemicals, abuse, fear based teachings, the negativity of the system in collapse. As it reemerges watch as the tightened rose in it’s closednit bud begins to grow and blossom into a new beautiful emergent of radiance and love. Similar to that of the human going through their own personal transformational blossoming.

Tools and Tips

As we are in the week of the 11/11 gateway and energy of the full moon this is bringing in high streams of light. I have felt elated and a sense of peace and calm. I have to assume that my practices have allowed me to integrate as well as ground this energy. For some that may be having a difficult time and for those that just want to keep a sense of balance the following are some tips I’ve been guided to share.

Nature Walks- Not just walking blindly and unconsciously but look around, look up at the sky, at the ground, the surroundings. Feel the outdoors, the air, the grass, the dirt, the water, the sun, smell, hear the sounds. Use your senses to connect with nature and tune into our soul, our intuition.

Breathe- Take long intentional breaths. Breathe in slowly, allow your body to fill, beginning at the pelvic area, rising up into the belly and allow your breath to expand into your heart, hold it, if you can and then slowly breathe out. Take long breaths while cooking, folding laundry, as you do what most consider mundane every day tasks, take it in.

Listen– Just listen without judgement, without the need to fix.

Surrender- Know what you want, visualize it, write it down, meditate on it and then surrender it. Trust that whatever needs to take place, will. Know that it may not be exactly how our human ego mind wants it to be but be open, open to allowing the Divine to step in and be open to allow and receive. Be receptive, BE RECEPTIVE. Us givers feel it’s selfish to receive. It’s part of self care to allow help in, it’s part of our birthright to receive, as we allow love in, we give love and the cycle continues. Be open to receive miracles. This feeling of selfishness for taking care of ourselves is breaking down in the system, it can hurt at times but it has to happen in order to allow love in, break down the walls around the heart, open the heart, it’s been closed for a very long time.

Meditate- Kundalini meditation, breath work, deep breathing, guided meditation, mantras, just meditate. Constant-Consistency, be consistent but do not lie to yourself. If you know you can only do 10 minutes than stick to it and if you can do an hour but only choose to do 5 minutes than it is what it is, just don’t lie to yourself. We have been conditioned to lie, to make excuses to the most important person in our lives, the self. The self knows when it’s lied to. “Own it.”

Affirm- Affirm love. I choose love today. And be open to allowing and receiving all the loving abundance the Universe has to offer. I am now grounded.

Stay Grounded- We tend to hang out, outside of our bodies due to trauma, pain, distractions, worry, stress, etc. So important to call our energy back into our bodies. By calling ourselves back from all time, places and spaces. Call back all pieces of yourself that you may have given up unconsciously or consciously to another. “I call back my power and energy back into my physical body now”. Command it back, put your hand on your heart and the other hand on your belly, breathe and then ask “Higher self, show me what my energy feels like”. You may feel your throat close, anxious, your stomach or head hurt, feel it, sit in it for a moment (thoughts may enter into your mind, perhaps a person that made you angry during the day, or you were worrying about a child, work, or something from 10 years ago, whatever comes to mind, just be the witness, allow and observe). Thank your higher self and then ask that you be cleared of all that is not of you, all that is not for you, all that does not belong to you and all that does not serve you and breathe. Ask that you be grounded. Imagine a bolt of light coming down directly from Divine Source and imagine golden liquid melted honey like light dissolving this energy away and grounding your energy to the New Earth. Allowing the Earth’s energy to heal and balance your mind, body and spirit. And then thank God, the Universe, your Angels, guides, higher self (whatever it is that you call that all loving presence). “Thank you for clearing, cleansing, uplifting, grounding and protecting my energy and auric field at all times. Thank you, thank you, thank you and so it is.”

I hope this helps. With much love always!

Zombie life vs. Awaken life?

This half way point of awareness, of the change that is happening, a piece of me wanting to go back to the old version of pushing, making things happen, forcing until I’m done, depleted and physically just can’t do anymore. But my soul wants me to pause, wait, stop, allow for a moment, to take in the progress, the changes, the shifts that I have created, that we created together. This does not mean non action, in fact this is the most productive action I’ve taken. I’m no longer running on stress, on anxiety, and no longer have my head completely in the clouds, but aware. Awareness, being awake is not easy at all times. In fact it’s a complete reality check, no more excuses, no more lies and that means I no longer can lie to myself. I can no longer pretend I’m happy if I’m not, I no longer feel comfortable in the discomfort I became accustomed to. I have to walk the talk. There was a point where I was in an almost constant spiritual state of bliss and I lived at a really high vibration for a while, which is great as long as I remember to stay grounded, aware and without spiritual bypassing. Inspired writing was what I presented but was I truly following the advice I was giving?….Not always. That I found, doesn’t fly with my soul, with the Universe period. And that is a path I believe we are all being led on.

As we all begin to awaken and become more aware we have choices to make. Do you go on pretending doing what no longer feels right because it is what you’ve been taught or do you uncover the false self and allow the true self to emerge?

One night I experienced what I call the zombie night, during a time in my life where it was as if a portal opened up and I had inside access and was shown what is playing out in the Universe and what will be unfolding. Where I heard the sound of zombies, it was so intense I had to put ear plugs in my ears because I didn’t want to hear the truth. So I avoided, tried to shut out what was being presented to me which is, that most of us are choosing a zombie life. We are in these amazing vehicles called bodies and we have the potential for greatness, in fact we don’t even have to go after it, the greatness exists now but we are numbing out, doing everything we can to not feel, not to face each other let alone ourselves, and literally walking around like zombies half the time with our faces in multiple devices and don’t even remember how we got from point A to point Z.

I mention this because there is a huge turning point, I feel it, like a major shift is going to happen again. The last huge transition I went through pushed me beyond what was “humanly” possible. Or so I thought. I saw, heard, felt past the physical senses and was shown the beyond, what is possible as multi sensory and multi dimensional beings, what we have access to and what we are capable of. Little by little I’m shown more and more. Things such as, I have a thought and focus on that thought creating an action but not a physical one, making things happen with my mind, energetically. Simple things like changing radio stations, or lowering the volume or from the bathroom turning on the coffee maker in the kitchen. I was shown that I could either choose to be mind controlled by outside negative forces that don’t always have my best interest in mind such as programmed news outlets, shows, government, politics, genetically modified foods, chemicals, things that are trying to close my pineal gland instead of having it in it’s natural state. As well as my other emotional centers (you’ve heard me refer to them as chakras before). I know when they are balanced, I no longer can be controlled but can have the power to move, change and create things in my life with my mind, my heart, my soul, co-creating with a higher power of love because now I am functioning from a place of perfect coherence. And I am easily able to enter into a state of presence, of neutrality, observation, being the witness without judgment. I’ve seen the impossible and no longer put limits on anything. I’ve seen through the density of walls, other dimensions, this is the stuff you see in science fiction movies except it’s no longer pretend. Just wait and see, things are about to get really real but not in the way you’ve been used to.

As Yogi Bhaghan stated at this time in our lifetime; 1/3 of the population will go insane, 1/3 will die (commit suicide) and 1/3 will awaken. Which one will you choose?

Keep Rising

At this time as humanity goes through major transformations, from my understanding none of us can escape, can hide any longer from the inevitable. We chose to go straight into the eye of the storm, some may try to avoid, may try to numb the pain that arises. And as the dust settles some will feel lighter, elated, some may feel heavy, weighed down and some somewhere in the middle. This ascension, awakening…we are all experiencing trying to view it and go through it without judgment, as I hear the voices of peoples energy, some are violent, some are victimized, so much shame and so much anger. We can never truly know what someone is going through but from my experience we are all feeling it. The one’s that have been doing this work the first wave of ascension, will be here to guide the 2nd wave and then the 3rd and so on. There are stages, a process to all of this even if it feels so freaking chaotic, strange and hard at times.

People will drop out of your life. Some temporarily and some forever, not because they don’t love you but perhaps you are at a different frequency a different vibration that you no longer are in resonance to. Look at it as a good thing. For those that become aligned with you down the road you will reconnect and for others they may never catch up but that’s okay. See it as a blessing as you no longer can drop down, they must raise up.

Keep rising, keep shining!

Are Angels Real?

The loss that rocked me is mentioned in this post from 2017 (the death of my brother in law happened on this date). I am always reminded that although we feel the sadness of the great losses in our lives,  it is the great memories that keep them alive in our hearts. And once you have gone through your grieving process they rather us focus on the memories that make us smile than just replaying the moment they left their physical body. Recently my daughter experienced the loss and pain of losing her best friend, my in laws lost there furry four legged child, and many others everywhere are grieving the loss of someone they love deeply. From my experience they are always connected because love never dies. In memory of the beautiful souls that continue to live on in our hearts.

A loss is a loss but remember the many years of love shared and love gained. That is where we would like you to keep your focus. (A message I received recently).

(Repost from 9/15/2017)

Until this year although I grew up Catholic, went to church every Sunday as a child (mainly because my parents dragged me there, never paid any attention to the actual service.  Most Sundays my mom had to take me outside because I was laughing too much and disturbing the people around us, being an annoyance).  I don’t think I ever put much thought into what created us or if there was more to life than what I saw in front of me…. I take that back, I do remember as a child my sister and I would talk about what was there before us…. a black hole, darkness, air, where did the trees come from, the sky, the animals, people?  How did all this around us come about.  I’m not even sure if my sister remembers those conversations but I do.  I guess inside I figured there had to be someone who created all but again not sure if I had faith.

Growing up loss became normal, a part of my life, every year someone died or several people.  Some from diseases such as cancer, Aids, disasters, car accidents, drug overdoses, suicide, etc.  I used to have a strange reaction towards death, I don’t think I really cried I felt more sadness and pain, feeling the emotions of the people left behind. Until I loss my brother-in-law at the age of 32, he was more than my brother-in-law he was my brother, family member, my good friend…..so unexpected and that was the death that rocked my world.  As I watched my sister and her 1-year-old son pull the pieces together I questioned if there was a God and I was angry.  I had lost faith in faith.  As the years went on I used to talk to my brother in-law often as if I knew he was still around, I prayed to him more than a God, asked for signs and always received them (never jolted, never shocked when the lights would flicker on and off, or the fan would go crazy, the blue dragon-fly that hung around our house and came in one night and sat on my husbands finger as it tilted its little head and smiled at me and we just knew it was him). The strange thing is even then I still didn’t think much about if there was life after death but I never questioned the signs either, I would ask, always receiving, smile and say thank you. Maybe back then I just thought it was wishful thinking that I just talked away after each sign was given, like most of us do.

At some point in everyone’s life I think it is natural to wonder are Angels really real? And just like me it is usually asked when you lose a person that holds a special place in your heart (or several people).  Hoping to receive something, a sign, anything, desperate to reconnect in some way.  So how can we talk away what we ask for and then are given, knowing there are too many of us that have seen or experienced something that couldn’t be explained.  But now I know without a doubt that there is more than what most of our physical eyes can see….God, Angels, Ascended masters, Arch Angels, beings of light energy.  I’m still not sure if I believe in one organized religion but now I do have faith in a higher power and from my daily experiences I can tell you Angels are very real.

Card Reading: 9/19/2019

High Priestess- Mystery- The number 2 is the energy of collaboration/ partnership with another person or with Spirit. This card represents the mystical, the magical, the miracles of life. The experiences that go beyond logic. A feeling of grounded whimsy and wonder. Being able to trust my intuition, the guidance and cues that Spirit is constantly giving us and that we all have access to. As I learn to trust my inner knowing, my gut feelings, that inner Divine Wisdom, the miracles and magic of life is revealed.

9 of Earth- Discipline self-reliance, reliable resources, restraint and self-control, the final stone placed in the foundation. The number 9 is the energy of global awareness, co-creativity in action, and the relationship between your power and that of Spirit, as well as others that share in the co-creation of the outer world. Completion. Trust in myself as I know Spirit is always guiding me. Giving me signs and reminding me of the array of tools I have at my disposal that are here to help. I use my resources wisely which help to build the foundation of my security in the world. I am disciplined and focused on completing the work I began long ago. I finish what I started knowing the plan is unfolding before me, just as the Universe has intended.

Ace of Air- Destiny and fate, powerful forces of transformation at work, synchronicity. Ace is the driving, primal force “Everything I desire begins with me”. Forces beyond my control are operating in my life now for the highest good. So as I trust my intuition, am focused and disciplined the Universe will display synchronicity. Expect quick results that will lead me forward with excellent information. Trust what I am receiving, to be in the embodiment of trustworthiness and allow the Universe to bring forth my true desires.