Love Over Powers All

A Message from the Divine Mother

All of it is real and all an illusion created by you.  As your faith grows, your gifts grow, your love grows because you are no longer leaning on yourself, no longer allowing fear to lead you or take over, you are leaning on a power much greater.  Love is what over powers all!  Call in unconditional love every morning, the light of love to surround you, to uplift you.  You have known this for so long.  Simple but so powerful, it is what you came here to learn and teach, self-love, self acceptance, teach it to all.  Through your powerful messages, continue to go within, connect with love, follow your heart, feel as it continues to guide you, smell the roses, walk in nature, do what brings you joy and remember to RELAX, follow your inner guidance & as you do your outer world will reflect back to you love.  Know all is well, all that you desire is waiting for you and with each and every step you take, with each intentional breath you take (breathe in and out feel love fill your entire being, the space you are in), be present, dream big, be open and continue allowing love in.  Love you always, your love guide!

Free & Awake (Indigo Child)

We can’t be told who we are or what to do, freedom, to be free is to fly maybe that is why I connect to the sky, the birds because of the flawless flight as they soar high. Landing stopping from time to time, to tree to tree, a new experience, a new place, a new dream, does it ever stop, do we ever stop wanting, desiring…NO. So why or how did I get here? Lost for twenty something years, a young adult out on my own, then a child having a child but I still feel wild and free. Parenting, yes although books will tell us how, they don’t know who I am so how will I learn through a manual all the while having an innate way of raising another being. Feeling so much pressure to do this right. Life is not a school or at least not like any school I’ve been to. Being trained to be told what to do and how to do it, yes there are rules, laws, ways of being that society feels comfortable with but my innate knowing felt like I wanted to break all the rules, they never made sense; be good, sit still, stop laughing, be quiet, be a proper girl, Sshhhh. The more I was told this the more I pushed back so I did all I knew, I broke the rules but was good at showing face to look ” GOOD” on the outside. Behind the scenes I did and tried things that would be labeled wrong, bad, dirty. So outside I looked okay but inside society would have me feeling shame, a rotting away because I felt I created a lie.

Not so much a lie but a disguise. But now I have to be responsible, get a job, a home, I wouldn’t have it any other way and wouldn’t take any of it back but wish I took more pride instead of creating a nest of anger and resentment inside. I followed the path of the white picket fence but never felt like I fit in that perfect world (which is really not that perfect). In fact I felt so lost until I was awaken. Now realizing I had been asleep, there is a wonderful world that lies outside and within. Once I was awoken to the truth of who I always been and the girl who was once outspoken, that stood up and talked back was okay all along. That little girl who dreamed big still lives free inside me. I am her and she is me.

Avoidance: Just another way Fear shows up

When we live from a place of fear we try to create a “safe” environment by putting so much of our energy into avoiding so many things, and not living our truth. We may look at almost everything, everyone and situation as a potential danger (from people, to germs, finances, fear of success, fear of failure, fear of giving up or never trying at all, relationships, jobs,etc). So we put all this energy into avoiding everything that frightens us, which makes sense….we were taught don’t touch that it will break, don’t pet that dog he may bite, don’t jump off the monkey bars you’ll break your arm, don’t swim to deep you may drown, don’t run you’ll fall.  So it’s ingrained at a young age to avoid or to not try at all so we don’t get hurt. Which creates some level of fear in just about anything and everything we encounter in our daily lives.  I believe this to be a learned behavior, whether it came from the teachers in our lives and even if it didn’t come from our parents, we learned this at school, through watching others, everywhere you go as children we observed, learned and felt this “avoidance” behavior. And now our energy can feel stifled, trying so hard to breathe but we are literally strangling ourselves.  And if now we are the scared adult with children of our own, that is a whole other level of fear.  We end up missing out on “LIFE” and projecting our worries and fears onto our children.

I realized in my avoiding I also create procrastination which is just another form of fear and it is all because I am afraid.  But now being aware and mindful of the things I put so much energy into avoiding, knowing it is a great step forward because now I am more easily able to catch myself, ask why am I doing this? Or more importantly why am I NOT doing this? And whatever is causing me to avoid (as long as it’s truly not going to physically cause me harm or another) I choose to choose the latter, choose to take right step actions towards what brings me joy, choose love over fear.  Of course I’m not saying jump out of a plane without a parachute but the everyday choices that we make to avoid the things that scare us are actually creating that very thing we are avoiding.  It’s actually creating more fear.

Whether it’s constantly worrying about your weight; putting your focus into avoiding this food or that food but the scale stays the same or you seem to put on more weight (instead focus your energy on loving yourself), staying in relationships/friendships that cause you pain or drain you avoiding being alone (instead of focusing your energy on loving yourself and making room for the right partner to come into your life), staying in a job that you are miserable at because it’s safe avoiding going after your dreams and although you are bringing in an income you still seem to stay in a vicious cycle of living paycheck to paycheck or barely having enough to get by (instead focus your energy on loving yourself take steps to go after your dream, find your purpose), avoiding an uncomfortable conversation because you are scared of confrontation but held in for too long either later turns into a complete blow out battle or turned inward an ucler, avoiding asking for help out of fear that you will look weak because you “should’ be able to handle it all or that you will be disappointed that no one will offer a helping hand.  My solution will continue to be the same focus your energy on loving yourself, do what brings you joy.

Think about all the things in life that you work so hard at and that you’ve been putting your energy into avoiding, how long have you been missing out on life, how long have you been stuck in the same unhappy patterns? Begin to do the opposite, be aware, switch up your game, your daily routine, your perception, open your awareness, take a moment to Breathe with intent, ask for help.  Incorporate something new into your life that you have been avoiding. Do something different, see what happens. Begin to take the path of least resistance by trusting All is well. I’m ready to jump, jump with me and if we fall I know we’ll get right back up but I have to try!!!! Start small if you have to, whether it’s getting up earlier to incorporate a morning run or to take 5 minutes to yourself to jump-start your day.

I would love to hear feedback because I bet we all have similar avoidance out of fear.  I feel when we share it heals us, it let’s us know we are not alone and brings us closer together, in unity.  I’ve been avoiding expanding my audience, fully sharing my messages and my healing gifts (I have so much to say, so many experiences I want to share but have been holding back a bit because I was scared others wouldn’t accept me for who I am).  But now that I have more love and acceptance for myself, I feel I want to share more freely.  Knowing that self-love and acceptance is important to me, I want to look myself in the mirror and like the person I see knowing I am being as authentic as possible with every day setting an intention to do my very best.

Just for today I will be kind to all living things, just for today I will not worry, just for today I will not be angry, just for today I will be grateful, just for today I will do my work honestly.  These are the Reiki principles which I have begun to live by daily and I add a couple of my own like I will practice forgiveness, I will not judge others or myself and be more loving and compassionate). I am a certified Intuitive Reiki Energy healer and soon will offer my services to the public.

I have these amazing gifts and ready to share them.  I’ve done so much self-healing, a lot of introspective investigation to figure out who I am, why I am the way I am, why I feel, hear, see and know so much. I was stopped in my tracks a couple of months ago because I asked daily who am I and what is my purpose and I received the answers over and over and over again but I wasn’t listening, I wasn’t sharing, I was un-grounded due to all the self-doubt/ fear I was still holding onto. I wanted to be of service and was given everything to do so but kept it to myself because I wasn’t in a place of self-love and acceptance.  Sometimes the miracles, the experiences I’ve been gifted have been so special, so amazing, so unreal that I didn’t know how to express them but I know now it is time. Energy healing combined with my greatest gift of intuition to be able to connect to people on a soul level to help them live their best lives ever. To help others raise their vibration to release the emotional blocks that cause emotional/physical pain is a gift that needs to be shared.  For me I feel most like myself, most authentic when I can connect to this part of me, where I am a conduit for Creative Divine Source Energy to work through me, where I feel my best, in complete alignment with the path that has been laid out for me, where I can serve while feeling fulfilled, attracting abundance and feel free. Allow the light in me help to ignite the light in you!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Self Love & Acceptance

Seeking validation and approval from outside sources my whole life thinking this past year I had fully mastered self-love and acceptance.  Until I was stopped by my shadow pieces, the pieces of me that keep blocking me from moving forward, that have been keeping me on a roller coaster of ups and downs.  Through this transformation, faced with the lies I had created, releasing each block, each emotion that was created from fear, from an illusion, a false reality.  As I’m shown what still stands in my way to my life’s purpose, my true whole self and my soul will not allow me to ascend until I face myself and learn to discern what is truth and what is false. All the lessons I am learning, realizing it all comes back to me…. the only person I need approval from is “MYSELF”.  As I continue to bring awareness to all that I can, try to look yourself in the mirror and say “I love and accept myself because I am special”.  It sounds easier said then done (especially if you can still hear a piece of you telling yourself “I hate you”, the false self, lower self, the voice of your ego).

I’ve said it before and need to say it again it begins with our children… have them say to themselves “I love and accept myself because I am special” or simply “I love myself”.  The pain and expansion in my heart when a young child comes to me to express her pain and I ask her to put her hands on her heart and please say those very words, all the while doing as I asked of her but saying this is so stupid, rolling her eyes at me.  Me wishing so desperately that she believed in that phrase because I knew she knew I didn’t believe it for myself so how dare I ask of her to do something that I fully didn’t feel.  Because I hadn’t taught myself yet how to love myself, how can I ask her to do the same.  Because I had not shown her what self-love and acceptance really looks and feels like.  I am supposed to be her role model but yet my children are my teachers and also my mirror.

I have gone back to my younger self, my teenage self, young adult or should I say they have come to me to show me the shadow pieces that I needed to heal.  We can all do this, travel back in time by going within or looking in a mirror (mirror work), writing a letter to our younger selves and apologize to yourself for creating lies that would later lead to self sabotage and allow the you right now to say “I forgive you”.  Self forgiveness is so powerful.

Know that children have been watching, hearing and feeling what you are sending out from within.  Please take a moment, breathe, stop, stop beating yourself up, watch what you say around your children, but mostly be aware of what you are telling yourself, stop pretending everything is okay when it isn’t and begin to heal your inner child and as you do the little one’s (and not so little) will mirror back to you, YOU! And hopefully that mirror will reflect pure LOVE and ACCEPTANCE.

My Truth

I believe, God is the creative Divine Source of all that is.  I had lost that knowing along the way, the inner knowing I had grown to trust, that inner creative genius, inner guidance.  I began to crave and trust something outside of me and all the while the answers were still within.  We all know this to some degree or another but lose sight of it and forget along the way.  I gave my power away to so many (something I said I would not do again once I connected to my higher power within).  Divine Will is when you completely trust and are able to commune with a higher power that works with you and for you, to know we are all worthy of the most beautiful life full of love, joy, abundance and miracles.  Because I love and accept myself and know I am special.  I know this again but many do not.  I know my purpose is to bring about change through awareness. I may not know exactly all the details of what that looks like right now but I know I will be shown the way.  Even in what I’ve been through I know I had to go through, it was my soul’s plan, to be able to fully come into more of my truth and to fully stand in my truth.  Without truly releasing the old out dated beliefs, paradigm and emotions that no longer serve how could I possibly truly serve from a place of authenticity.

Many of us do not use our creative side, the right side of our brain.  This is where creativity flows, where I believe passion is sparked, inspiration, motivation and most of all where we trust our greatest gift our intuition….this is where we can trust our heart center.  That feeling I get when I ask a question now and my heart expands, knowing my heart will never lie to me.  We are taught at a young age to use the left side of our brain and I do believe we need a healthy balance of both but to only use logic and not creativity… we lose our zest for life.  We lose who we are, who we are meant to be.  All beautiful creative beings of light, here to co-create with each other as one.  I lost sight of this and so many things that I had remembered and been taught along the way.  But I make a promise to myself I will never forget again (the pain of doing so is way more than my soul can take).  I will take time for myself and nurture myself because I have to, I will be more forgiving to myself and others, I will do my best to try not to pass judgement and if I do I will practice forgiveness again and I will always have compassion for all including myself.  To have compassion and to love ourselves and others from a true heart centered place is life changing. Empathy is a strength!! To feel another’s emotions, joy or pain can be difficult at times but once you learn  how to have true compassion for another without taking on another’s energy completely on as your own, you can help and be of service from a place of authenticity because you can make sure you are not giving up your power, your energy to another.

The word Empath, everyone needs to become familiar with this word because I believe many if not all of us are one.  I know I am one…..to feel the pain of the world can be difficult at times but that is where my deep compassion for others comes from, that is where my deep desire to be of service comes from, to want to heal the world.  I may not be able to heal everyone but through the messages I share which I know will help to raise awareness through intention by being a clear channel for pure divine love to work through, I am being my truth.

With love in my heart always.  Stay heart centered without giving your power away and live with more joy, love, compassion and authenticity.  The way we are always meant to.

Inside Job

If we can all try to be more present in the moment and remember what we all really want and desire.  To feel more fulfilled with love and joy and have compassion for ourselves and others. To move away from darkness and lean towards the light.  In really listening to one of my favorite bands this morning….I really felt the words.  Especially to this song because we all connect and come from the same light.  I call it divine source that reminds me to continue to have faith and when I get off track reminds me that transformation happens first from the inside out.
Inside Job by
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
Make myself a pact not to shut doors on the past
Just for today I am free
I will not lose my faith
It’s an inside job today
I know this one thing wellâ?¦
I used to try and kill love. the highest sin
Breathing insecurity out and in
Searching hope, I’m shown the way to run straight
Pursuing the greater way for all human light.
How I choose to feel is how I am.
How I choose to feel is how I am.
I will not lose my faith
It’s an inside job today
Holding on, the light of night
On my knees to rise and fix my broken soul
Again
Let me run into the rain
To be a human light again
Let me run into the rain
To shine a human light today
Life comes from within your heart and desire
Life comes from within my heart and desire
Life comes from within your heart and desire
Songwriters: Eddie Vedder / Mike Mccready
Inside Job lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

Now is the Time for Change

As I stumbled upon several post about the increase in suicides on news outlets and social media again feeling extremely nudged to do my part and share.  As I continue on my path towards healing trying to figure out all that led up to my breaking point, realizing yes ignoring signs that maybe I was taking on too much, maybe I was putting everyone else’s needs first ahead of mine, putting off my dreams to take care of “responsibilities” (forgetting that I am aware when you have true faith….the universe has your back.  We can have the lives we want without feeling constantly depleted), if I could have just asked for help a little sooner or if I didn’t have people around me that cared so much about me to notice I know where I would have been today (I’ve heard the emergency signals for months now knowing they were warning me).  Because I would have kept going had my family not stepped in or even worse been given an even bigger wake up call that I couldn’t have come back from.  I was lucky but many aren’t.  This was something I had written in October 2017 in-regards to the crisis at the moment that was in the news now realizing there is always going to be something that breaks my heart and the hearts of so many if we continue down this path of self-denial, self-destruction (call me dramatic but how dark does it need to get, how young does the next person need to be reported on the news that took their own life because we aren’t facing what is in front of us).  Something is seriously wrong when the world keeps ignoring that we need change.

NOW IS THE TIME FOR CHANGE:

I want to take this moment to acknowledge and speak out about all the chaos that is going on in our world lately.  At times I’ve felt it’s almost too much to bare, out of control…. Not sure if I have any words of wisdom but want to say I’m sorry to all that are suffering, grieving, struggling, traumatized, trying to figure out how to move forward, my prayer is that at some point you feel a glimmer of hope again.

It’s easy for me to not turn on the news and pretend everything is fine in my safe little bubble but even in doing that I feel the sadness, fear and uncertainty of the world.  Real emotions due to real events.  I feel this sadness and know I must do my part, this is why I was called upon.  So I do my part by praying, donating time, items and money where I can.  But also knowing the more I continue with my practices of going within connecting with my higher power, I can create change, a ripple effect and the more of us that do this one day we will see less of this craziness.  Knowing we are all one, even if I wasn’t directly impacted it still hurts my heart.

The universe has been telling me over and over again Now is the time for humanity to rise up to continue as a species that yes we must all come together in communities but we all need to turn inward to be able to truly help others, we must help ourselves, heal ourselves, be mindful, begin to live with the intention that we can turn darkness into light, fear into love, despair into hope.  Where there is hope there is change.  We have become a society that is moving way to fast, focused on how to achieve success by how much we can do or how much we have but it’s people who matter.  And it will always go back to love…but how can we love others when we hate ourselves, when we can’t forgive ourselves and others, when we hold onto resentment, anger and judgement and have so much fear due to feelings of lack and scarcity.

I’ve learned that war, violence, hatred, abuse, etc. all comes of a scarcity mentality, a fear based thinking world.  Yes there are real issues right now that are creating fear.  I am not taking away from the parents that lost a child or a child that lost their parents, their friends, brothers and sisters all I can say is I am so sorry that you have to endure this deep level of pain and my prayers are that you can get through this with the support, help and love from your communities and loved ones.

But if we can begin to think and feel as one and understand the oneness, that there is no separation between you and me, “We” are here together as one!  Now is the time we must unite and come together with the intention to create change.  Individually we become mindful and love intentionally with the same goal of love and peace, change can happen.  It may begin by going within healing our spirit, the inner child within all of us for humanity to begin to realize we are all brothers and sisters no matter our skin color, race, sexual preference, religion or social status.  What we do onto others we do onto ourselves.  So open your heart, stay heart centered, come together as a community with love and we can rise above all…..as one mind, one love, one heart.  Come together now for now is the time for us and for future generations to come, to move further away from darkness and closer to the light.  Now is the time for change!

You are special

I am sending this as a reminder to myself and anyone else that is having a difficult time (a re-post of something I had posted a while back; a reminder that You are Special).  I thought I had gone through a transformation last year when I began to awaken and I did but the one thing I did not do is listen to the guidance that was given to me.  I did not listen to my heart, I did not fully do the work of going within to release all fear, doubt, worry and negativity that was stuck deep within me.  When I’m ready to fully share my story about how from one day to the next I went from a spiritual high to the next stopped completely in my tracks, flipped upside down, engulfed by fear.  The story of how my complete breakdown has begun to lead to a breakthrough….a transformation into my true authentic self (not quite there yet but the time is NOW to share).

Thank God for my tools and practices for once I could finally put a sentence together on my own and begin to kind of understand what was happening that I had been living in fear this whole time, pretending to the outside world everything was okay and had begun to move away from love for myself.  I began to use the tools I had learned but it wasn’t until I fully surrendered to the process and admitted to myself that I have no idea how to do this.  I believe we heal in others what still needs to be healed in ourselves and the biggest thing that has helped me is going back into my notebooks and reading the messages I had been given.  It was as if my future self was telling me the whole time what would happen if I didn’t listen, didn’t fully release and live from a place of authenticity.  These words of encouragement to help me through this extremely painful time.  It’s crazy because no one physically died but I feel a part of me did which I know will be a good thing one day but right now in the thick of it, it is my own personal internal Hell of old emotions, lies I believed in for so long, a false self…it’s scary, crazy and I don’t even have the right words right now to explain what I’m going through but all I know is I have to share the messages of encouragement that I have been given over the past year or so.  For if I can help one person with a positive message that has begun to help me heal then than I know I’ve done more than enough.

YOU ARE SPECIAL:

You will continue to raise your vibration, every time you go within it gets higher, your presence becomes stronger, we become more and more connected to you, it will seem so easy to connect.  Your gifts are blossoming.  We are here to help you and yes you will be able to help yourself and others.  As long as you are open to receiving and open to allowing there is no prayer to big that we are not willing to guide and help you with.  You have the power and with our help we will help you create whatever your heart desires as long as it stays in alignment with your true self.  You are worthy, continue to work on your relationship with yourself, continue to love yourself, take time for yourself without guilt and you will begin to see the miracles, actual miracles happen before your eyes.

You are special, remember that, repeat it out loud, You are special!  God has a special plan for you, you are unique, you are able to create beautiful loving magic.  Love yourself unconditionally just like we do, without judgement, you are perfect in the eyes of God.  Yes everyone has things in their life they can improve on but you are now aware of those things that may be holding you back and when you are ready we will help you to release those habits that no longer serve you.

Continue to learn, listen to the positive teachers that you’ve been listening to.  In your own unique way, you to can be a teacher and we can help you.  Be proud of how far you have come, once you removed the negative, self-destructive, inner chatter and replaced it with positive thoughts, added a daily meditation routine, added a daily way to move your body, began self-care and knew you were worth it, change happened, life shifts and it begins with the thoughts, there has to be a better way, life has to be better than this, I am going to make it better for myself, I am ready to move out of ordinary and live extraordinary.  Once that shifts takes place there is no going back.  Once you open yourself up to a beautiful life of ease and flow and stop living from fear, creativity begins to flow easily.

Miracles

I very much believe in miracles and know we are all worthy of living a life full of them.  I have watched miracles touch the lives of people around me, as well as my own life.  Pray for miracles and watch how they begin to show up in your daily life.

The following are quotes taken from the book a Course in Miracles:

Miracles are everyone’s right; Miracles are healing; Miracles are a kind exchange (expressions of love, there being more love both to the giver and the receiver).

Prayer is the medium of miracles; It is a means of communication of the created with the creator. Through prayer love is received and through miracles love is expressed.

Miracles are thoughts; Miracles bear witness to truth; Each day should be devoted to miracles; Miracles transcend the body.  They are sudden shifts into invisibility, away from the bodily level. That is why they heal.

A miracle is a service.  A way of loving your neighbor as yourself.

Miracles reawaken the awareness that the spirit, not the body is the alter of truth, leads to healing power of the miracle.

You are a miracle, capable of creating in the likeness of your creator, everything else is your own nightmare and does not exist, Only the creations of light are real.

Miracles represent freedom from fear.

A miracle is never lost, it may touch many people you have not even met and produce undreamed of changes in situations of which you are not ever aware.

Self Love

When you stop looking for happiness outside of yourself, it’s amazing how you feel and what you notice.  It’s like opening your eyes and seeing the world for the first time, it’s a feeling similar to your first crush or when you begin to fall in love with someone except this person is now “YOU”.  You’re excited, feel ecstasy at times, true bliss.  It super seeds any love that you would have for anyone else, even the love for your child.  It sounds crazy, I know!  But it’s great because you can now love them even deeper (without feeling annoyed by some of their behavior).  You don’t feel like your making sacrifices, which builds resentment, you  have more to give because you are now more present.

It’s as if time expands.  On the other side there is no time, so you let go more, your more relaxed, calmer and when women are calmer, the energy in the home shifts.  I personally feel a woman’s energy is strong (whether good or bad), we are what make our home run like clockwork, except most of the time we run on a clock with low batteries.  Anger, frustration, depression, guilt, worry, anxiety, sends out and projects an energy that is sending out resistance.  Where peace, calm, love, fun, joy sends out energy that opens up and send out a message of allowing.  People can feel the energy you are projecting.  So think about what the energy feels like in your home…..is it thick, stuck, hard to move through or is it airy and free-flowing?