2019 Energy & Heart Healing Transmission

2019 Engery (recorded on 1/17/19 prior to January’s Total Lunar Eclipse)

I have taken a moment to step back even more, an internet/ social media detox, a time to really slow down (I didn’t know it was even possible to slow down even more), to be with my family, to continue to exist, be and in this beingness I have found that I am whole and complete. That despite the break from “working”, a lot of internal work has taken place. There is no manual to life but when we connect with the true self we are our greatest guide, when we can remember our truth and unlearn the beliefs that no longer hold true, no longer work for us, when we tap into our intuition and allow Mother Earth to guide us (knowing now we are the Universe), we are whole no matter if we feel sadness or joy. We are all of it but without being too attached to outcome, trust.

I have felt the Universe within, the collective, the ups and downs, the sadness, anger, fear as well as the love, the expansion and through a lot of self love and radical self care have experienced the integration of the Ego. Can step back and be the compassionate witness. The ascension process that I’ve heard so much about has literally played out within me from descension to working my way up. I have ascended from inner pits of hell the ultimate fear to heaven the ultimate love. I have never read the bible but my understanding is we are “it”, we are the stories, the stories being metaphors for how we ascend, how we live life through principles of forgiveness, nonjudgement, compassion & love, to be the co-creators, the masters of our own lives connected to source. As we all are taken on this journey through ascension there may be some fearful emotions that come up, life may be difficult at times/a struggle, or you can ride the wave of ascension surrendering the whole way knowing all is here and showing up in your life, for you, to help you.

Either way, now I understand when I was told by my higher self, the highest aspect of self, my guides and Angels (which are really all a layer of me, of self here to help on this journey of remembering) that I am a seed planter, a way shower, a light worker, an earth angel. I realize I am exactly where I need to be so I can help someone that may be a day behind me, a month, year, etc to help bring guidance and healing into their lives. Realizing with every channelled message written or spoken there is a healing frequency that comes with it. I was told I would heal with my messages, sound, color, in many different ways. But it wasn’t until my breakthrough in May that I now have a deeper understanding of what that means. Because I actually experienced it first hand. In the midst of it I was told to go to my blog, as I was in extreme fear I began to read and something amazing began to happen, it was as if I was encased in a protective beautiful bubble of white light being reassured by the Divine Mother and Father that all is well. I am a transmitter of this expanded heart healing energy, it took my breakdown to have this major revelation that once I fully surrendered to the process, to my gifts and no one else could step in because I had to prove it to me to know and trust that I can help others in the same way.

During one of my self healing sessions I had a profound healing experience in which I could feel and hear the presence of the Divine Mother and Father. I heard Heart and Soul Transformation healing was what was taking place. And as I wrote the title to this blog post I wrote Heart Healing transmission so for now that is what I will call it (as I type I feel my heart expand, love it….no more hiding my experiences, who I am and how I have transitioned/evolved into the person I am today).

Feel free to contact me. Go to the Healing section at the top of site to get in touch with me for a healing session (I will be adding intuitive readings as well).

Netflix- Heal

Documentary Heal on Netflix

I suggest that everyone watches this documentary to gain a deeper understanding of how powerful we truly are. And how our emotions, our thoughts and beliefs are a huge contributor to our health both physical and mental. How energy healing can play a big role in bringing balance to our lives amongst other alternative ways of healing. I lived for years with depression and anxiety. I tried so many different medications that covered the symptoms and although yes they helped to stable me they also caused other problems like low sex drive, feelings of emptiness/ no emotions and to get off these medications once your on them can be extremely challenging.

We are on this journey of life to feel and experience all kinds of things but sometimes what we think is helping us can also be hurting us. And yes I do agree that many medications can be helpful and have their place. But now is the time that we need to be open to other methods of healing. If you would have mentioned energy healing a couple of years ago I would have thought you were weird but now through several experiences I have been shown and gifted the most beautiful healing experiences. From stopping smoking after over 30 years; cold turkey with no side affects and no cravings or desire to ever go back to being a smoker. To helping and eliminating the aches and pains that come with the autoimmune disease of Lupus. To helping with anxiety, depression, bringing a sense a calmness back into a persons life that didn’t even know was possible. I could go on and on about the benefits of energy work/healing that help to bring balance into our everyday lives.

We are living in this fast paced modern world and need to find ways to limit stress and add practices of self care. And through these self care practices they will assist to uncover the truth of who we are and learn to love accept and approve of ourselves to bring us back to a feeling of wholeness.

I am whole and complete!

Meditation

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A commitment to a meditation practice is the number one way of creating a positive shift in our lives. It will create balance in our mind, body and spirit. Gain and improved clarity, stability, health and an overall feeling of wellbeing. Over time you will notice as life happens you can stay calm in moments that you may before have reacted to. A feeling of positivity, more joy. There are many ways of meditating, deep breathing, mantras, breath work, yoga meditations, walking meditations, guided meditations, find the meditation that works for you, one that will keep you wanting to come back for more. And remember it’s like working a muscle it gets easier and the results are better over time (it’s the cumulative).

Remember not to be so hard on yourself in the beginning, just be aware that you have committed to self-care, to meditate and are trying your best, which is a step in the right direction. Begin with 5 minutes and know that you can meditate anywhere (even in the bathroom on the toilet if you have too…it’s you and your breathe…no need to get dressed up but if you like the ritual of lighting a candle, have a certain room or spot in your home that is perfect too). The energy you create in that area will be so beautiful because you are giving time to you, much needed time to yourself. So many people say it’s difficult to keep their mind quiet but that’s the thing you don’t have to, find good guided meditations or repeat in your mind on the in breath Inhale and on the out breathe Release. Simple, we make this way harder than it needs to be. Your soul will thank you and once you’ve been doing it for a while your outer world will reflect the calmness in your inner world.

Heal Judgement

Listen to the attached audio in regards to healing judgement. Let’s free ourselves from what we hold onto energetically that does not serve (not just gossiping about others but all the internal judgement and the way we talk about other people’s lives to other people). Energetically I have felt and heard what this does and when we free ourselves of it, we also help others. This helps to ripple love out to feel uplifted, lighter, expansion. As a tool and tip begin a judgement journal, set the intention to surround it with healing energy so all that goes into that journal gets healed. You will be amazed at how your life will begin to transform. Truly excited to feel the transformational energy.

Heal Judgement

Get Heart Centered &Connect to the Intuitive Mind

In the unified field of consciousness that connects us all, through our free will we can choose love, peace and joy or fear, judgement and anger. Yes there are events, experiences in our life that lead us to feel emotions that have us feeling fearful constricted but in those moments how do we choose to perceive what is happening? Is it happening to us or for us? Are we looking to learn and grow or stay stuck in the fear? Our thoughts can spiral out of control playing out fear based stories but if we can take a moment drop into our hearts and lead from this space we can feel expanded.

Knowing now our emotions are very real and my belief is there is no right or wrong way to handle a situation. Sometimes very necessary to feel it, head on not run away from our feelings. They are showing us something, wanting us to ask, “why are you here again?” Wait, be still for a moment and listen for the answer. It’s when we pretend for to long and have no true connection to our truth that we put to the side, judge ourselves for not being tough enough, call ourselves cry babies, because we were told we should just get over things. Yes I do not think it serves to stay in fear of past events but if we can allow ourselves to feel, say I feel you, acknowledge, it can’t take hold of us in the way we have let in the past. Because we are all ascending, transforming, when we choose to not deal with our emotions this is an old paradigm that will not work anymore.

What I have been shown is everything I’ve pushed away avoided feeling and didn’t want to feel old emotions that surfaced and I was forced to face. As the veil gets thinner we may all be forced to face the things we pushed away so that we can finally live in a more heart centered way, where we allow our intuitive mind to do the thinking, our hearts because that is where it’s real. Our hearts do not lie, once we heal our broken heart we will feel that oneness, that connection to all.

Follow your intuition

Writing is one of the greatest ways I can express my creativity, it’s one of the ways I connect with the highest aspect of self. The way the words come out faster than I can write at times. I do a lot of inspired writing, some call it automatic writing. Where you allow the words to flow through you instead of trying to control what comes out. Through mindfulness, meditation and other tools and practices I have tapped into my gift of intuition, given the most beautiful and funny messages at times. And this is something everyone can do, in the beginning I suggest the best way to receive that free flow of inspired writing is right after meditation when you are still in your heart, centered and grounded. As I began my 11th journal this is what was written through me:

Here we go again, another book (journal)? This time I will have it all organized but they are my thoughts, feelings, revelations, messages, tools, meditations, affirmations, my sanity, how do I organize all of that and more? I called in “FOCUS” and heard a voice say “Are you ready to begin?”….I had to laugh because Focus was very….well…. FOCUSED! I hear, amongst other intuitive gifts so I can call in just about any part of me and probably hear, feel or sense that part that has been called on. Compiled all these pieces of self is “me”, in trying to figure out who I am, why I am the way I am, how did I transform from a person that made fun of people like me (judging in all kinds of ways) to now very aware, wanting, needing to know how to take these gifts, creativity, humor, energy and serve. Surrender, let go but also become the co-creator of my life while going with the flow. I hear “Read the books! To create yet another one and not have reviewed 1-10, C’mon, keep this one as the book of tools”.

Again I am clairaudient so I hear parts of me, as well as other sounds with my psychic hearing. But even if you can’t hear with your spiritual ear yet, you can feel, sense or know. Follow your inner GPS system, figure out how you receive that pure loving all knowing intuitive guidance. Do you feel relaxed, ask a question and the answer pops in your head right away, get a tingling feeling on the top of your head, through you body, (hairs on your arms stand up), feel your heart expand, feel inspired a moment of relaxed yet excitement like you have to jump into action. Sit still and breathe, ask your guides or highest self what would yes feel like for me and what does no feel like? Whether you realize it or not you are intuitive, we all are and however you receive your internal guidance, your “YES” when you are in flow, in alignment with all that is, your inner creative joyful, loving, all knowing genius within, when you are connected to the higher power within you, it is the light bulb switch that lights up energies and gives you your full body Yes! Follow it see where it takes you.

Say Yes to Self-Care

Say yes to yourself and to mindful practices. 

The attached audio is in regards to saying yes to ourselves which in turn raises our vibe, allows us to choose love and it ripples out to all around us. During these uncertain times, what I can be certain of is how I choose to perceive life and what I choose to do to help my personal growth. Sometimes not always easy to be and stay joyful but when you have a daily mindful practice, you gain more clarity on what you will no longer tolerate, create space for yourself to bring more love into your life. Your practices will become your non-negotiables and you will gain a knowing that we never do this life alone, no longer having to just rely on your own strength. Through meditation, yoga, walks, prayer, moments of expressing gratitude, journaling and choosing to say yes to self care, the insight, mental clarity, stability, well-being and balance will be gained.

Free & Awake (Indigo Child)

We can’t be told who we are or what to do, freedom, to be free is to fly maybe that is why I connect to the sky, the birds because of the flawless flight as they soar high. Landing stopping from time to time, to tree to tree, a new experience, a new place, a new dream, does it ever stop, do we ever stop wanting, desiring…NO. So why or how did I get here? Lost for twenty something years, a young adult out on my own, then a child having a child but I still feel wild and free. Parenting, yes although books will tell us how, they don’t know who I am so how will I learn through a manual all the while having an innate way of raising another being. Feeling so much pressure to do this right. Life is not a school or at least not like any school I’ve been to. Being trained to be told what to do and how to do it, yes there are rules, laws, ways of being that society feels comfortable with but my innate knowing felt like I wanted to break all the rules, they never made sense; be good, sit still, stop laughing, be quiet, be a proper girl, Sshhhh. The more I was told this the more I pushed back so I did all I knew, I broke the rules but was good at showing face to look ” GOOD” on the outside. Behind the scenes I did and tried things that would be labeled wrong, bad, dirty. So outside I looked okay but inside society would have me feeling shame, a rotting away because I felt I created a lie.

Not so much a lie but a disguise. But now I have to be responsible, get a job, a home, I wouldn’t have it any other way and wouldn’t take any of it back but wish I took more pride instead of creating a nest of anger and resentment inside. I followed the path of the white picket fence but never felt like I fit in that perfect world (which is really not that perfect). In fact I felt so lost until I was awaken. Now realizing I had been asleep, there is a wonderful world that lies outside and within. Once I was awoken to the truth of who I always been and the girl who was once outspoken, that stood up and talked back was okay all along. That little girl who dreamed big still lives free inside me. I am her and she is me.

Are you an Empath?

For over the past year my journey began when I wanted to understand what an Empath is because of my children. And I wanted to help, I wanted to fix, to heal….I dove so deep into all of it. Completely consumed by information and in the process I began to find myself. They were fine, I was not, through my projection of all my fears onto them I created distance and separation, in trying to protect them I was hurting the people I loved.

It did not fully hit until recently that the reason I have struggled with relationships my whole life from friendships, to romantic relationships to the rebellious teen and young adult self, work relationships (always choosing the same bosses and work environment). Is because I am an Empath, a highly sensitive person. The relationship I struggled with most is the one with myself. Never understanding why I felt I couldn’t handle the normal day-to-day life without feeling defeated, depleted, anger, resentment, anxiety…so much negativity but yet I was always the fun-loving girl. The one that could turn a funeral into a party, enjoyed life, took chances, was always ready to explore, said yes to having fun. And then things began to feel so hard.

My deep hurt wasn’t mine all the time, I was surrounded by love my whole life but put up a wall or at least tried to because their pain became my pain. I did everything I could to numb this pain, avoid feeling, but I still soaked it up. We are all addicted to something and although I judged other’s for theirs when you have to face your own it’s like looking the devil in the eyes. And it will make you feel like it will forever have a hold on you but once you can look yourself in the mirror and admit to your own personal demons I see you and even in my own steps to release you no matter how big or small the steps may seem it no longer can rule your life because the person who wants you to face it, is you.

During my breakdown I had episodes of traumatic memories replayed in my mind, my body, the fear was so deafening it was more than my system could take. Our moments that frighten us the most, that shake us up, that stop us are telling us something. If we don’t stop and listen, take notice and start looking within and what the people around us are showing us in those moments we lose out on life’s biggest lessons. The events in our lives are teaching us so we can grow, evolve, otherwise what is the point? Why did a love one choose to leave if we didn’t learn from their loss? Why did we experience a wake up call if it doesn’t make us ask bigger questions, of why are we here? Is there more to life than what I see or know? Do I have a bigger life’s purpose than what I am doing now? And if so what steps do I take to know that purpose?

Begin by going within, sit, stop, listen, take notice because if you have had these experiences consider yourself lucky. If you are reading this it’s because the Universe needs you to choose love and share that love with others. To be part of the much-needed uncovering, unfolding and release to know you are a light to the world and your light is needed now. And if you too are an Empath, a sensitive person and have felt like sometimes life is too much to handle, know that there is a way to make this your biggest super power, your greatest gift. I am finally at a point in my life that I love and embrace my gifts, I feel deeply and can help heal on a deep level as well. Contact me below for soul transformation healing.