Free & Awake (Indigo Child)

We can’t be told who we are or what to do, freedom, to be free is to fly maybe that is why I connect to the sky, the birds because of the flawless flight as they soar high. Landing stopping from time to time, to tree to tree, a new experience, a new place, a new dream, does it ever stop, do we ever stop wanting, desiring…NO. So why or how did I get here? Lost for twenty something years, a young adult out on my own, then a child having a child but I still feel wild and free. Parenting, yes although books will tell us how, they don’t know who I am so how will I learn through a manual all the while having an innate way of raising another being. Feeling so much pressure to do this right. Life is not a school or at least not like any school I’ve been to. Being trained to be told what to do and how to do it, yes there are rules, laws, ways of being that society feels comfortable with but my innate knowing felt like I wanted to break all the rules, they never made sense; be good, sit still, stop laughing, be quiet, be a proper girl, Sshhhh. The more I was told this the more I pushed back so I did all I knew, I broke the rules but was good at showing face to look ” GOOD” on the outside. Behind the scenes I did and tried things that would be labeled wrong, bad, dirty. So outside I looked okay but inside society would have me feeling a rotting away because I felt I created a lie.

Not so much a lie but a disguise. But now I have to be responsible, get a job, a home, I wouldn’t have it any other way and wouldn’t take any of it back but wish I took more pride instead of creating a nest of anger and resentment inside. I followed the path of the white picket fence but never felt like I fit in that perfect world (which is really not that perfect). In fact I felt so lost until I was awaken. Now realizing I had been asleep, there is a wonderful world that lies outside and within. Once I was awoken to the truth of who I always been and the girl who was once outspoken, that stood up and talked back was okay all along. That little girl who dreamed big still lives free inside me. I am her and she is me.

Are you an Empath?

For over the past year my journey began when I wanted to understand what an Empath is because of my children. And I wanted to help, I wanted to fix, to heal….I dove so deep into all of it. Completely consumed by information and in the process I began to find myself. They were fine, I was not, through my projection of all my fears onto them I created distance and separation, in trying to protect them I was hurting the people I loved.

It did not fully hit until recently that the reason I have struggled with relationships my whole life from friendships, to romantic relationships to the rebellious teen and young adult self, work relationships (always choosing the same bosses and work environment). Is because I am an Empath, a highly sensitive person. The relationship I struggled with most is the one with myself. Never understanding why I felt I couldn’t handle the normal day-to-day life without feeling defeated, depleted, anger, resentment, anxiety…so much negativity but yet I was always the fun-loving girl. The one that could turn a funeral into a party, enjoyed life, took chances, was always ready to explore, said yes to having fun. And then things began to feel so hard.

My deep hurt wasn’t mine all the time, I was surrounded by love my whole life but put up a wall or at least tried to because their pain became my pain. I did everything I could to numb this pain, avoid feeling, but I still soaked it up. We are all addicted to something and although I judged other’s for theirs when you have to face your own it’s like looking the devil in the eyes. And it will make you feel like it will forever have a hold on you but once you can look yourself in the mirror and admit to your own personal demons I see you and even in my own steps to release you no matter how big or small the steps may seem it no longer can rule your life because the person who wants you to face it, is you.

During my breakdown I had episodes of traumatic memories replayed in my mind, my body, the fear was so deafening it was more than my system could take. Our moments that frighten us the most, that shake us up, that stop us are telling us something. If we don’t stop and listen, take notice and start looking within and what the people around us are showing us in those moments we lose out on life’s biggest lessons. The events in our lives are teaching us so we can grow, evolve, otherwise what is the point? Why did a love one choose to leave if we didn’t learn from their loss? Why did we experience a wake up call if it doesn’t make us ask bigger questions, of why are we here? Is there more to life than what I see or know? Do I have a bigger life’s purpose than what I am doing now? And if so what steps do I take to know that purpose?

Begin by going within, sit, stop, listen, take notice because if you have had these experiences consider yourself lucky. If you are reading this it’s because the Universe needs you to choose love and share that love with others. To be part of the much-needed uncovering, unfolding and release to know you are a light to the world and your light is needed now. And if you too are an Empath, a sensitive person and have felt like sometimes life is too much to handle, know that there is a way to make this your biggest super power, your greatest gift. I am finally at a point in my life that I love and embrace my gifts, I feel deeply and can help heal on a deep level as well. Contact me below for soul transformation healing.

Empowerment

Empowerment jumping above water
Staying Centered within our Heart Space. Allowing our heart to lead us.
The push and pull, this inner struggle we have at times is a false reality, full of self doubt and criticism. I’ve said it before and I say again once our minds and hearts connect as one in perfect coherence we live in perfect harmony, inner peace, inner calm, a beautiful instrument to connect to our true whole self. The highest aspect of our true loving nature, who we truly are.
My journey continues but now I am ready to share, to be of service, to have that energy exchange because I am worthy of abundance in all forms. To offer what I know and how I rose above the falsehood literally went from the pits of an inner hell battling not only my inner demons but that of others as well, to rising up connected to the light within and all around. This may come in the form of my messages, books, courses, talking, energy healing, accountability, meditation….I am being guided in the most precious way and I am ready to help be a guide for you. Just say yes to your own personal growth.
Infinite Possibilities, Infinite Potential, Infinite Creative source. Call it in to fill, uplift and protect, we are a powerful being of light, shine our light on all because now is the time to go big, that can be any action that brings love in. Remember our truth, we are the light and always love. We are exactly where we need to be. No good or bad, right or wrong way only the mind perceives this way due to limiting beliefs. Time to shed the old beliefs and connect with our highest aspect of self. This is where we want to be so we can ascend with the New Earth.
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Highly Sensitive Person/Empath

This audio message I am sharing today was recorded as a private message to self but it is so important to bring more awareness to what an Empath or Highly Sensitive Person is and how if you don’t realize you are one you can begin to feel a little crazy because what you have been feeling may not be yours. This not only affects me but I am doing this for our children as well. There is a way to where this can be our greatest gift instead of feeling like a curse. I choose to see it as my greatest gift but to do that there are tools and practices that can help us to thrive in life. Ironically it’s 4:44 long, this is an Angel number and one that repeatedly comes up in life almost daily. I did not intentionally do that but love it when it happens.

Creative Intuitive Children

From a place within that I have tapped into, a connection to the creative source of all that is, my creative genius, my higher power. Not just for a chosen few but all can do this. As I continue to cultivate joyfullyawake, a way of being, a community, a unity of all to sustain more love and joy. I will show others how to do the same by loving ourselves and connecting to our greatest gift our intuition.
It begins by choosing to say yes, I’m ready to remember who I really am and why I am here. We all have purpose, we are all so creatively gifted in whatever way that shows up for you.
You can work as a toll booth attendant and be shining your light using your smile, your gifts to brighten someone else’s day (no offense to toll both workers in the world).
Our children are all gifted and came here to teach us how to love unconditionally but many adults had children out of a need to feel loved back. Perhaps they felt a lack of love as a child and now we have wounded parents that need to learn to love themselves and parent themselves. And children that are confused as to what they have done wrong, feeling a disconnect and a lack of love and self-worth as well.
Change has to happen, take a small step and say yes to yourself. As you cultivate a relationship with self it ripples to the people around you. Meaning your children, spouses all those you love will watch, feel and see you as a role model and change organically plays out. The vibration you raise in yourself will raise that in others, this is a Universal law.
We all think it is someone else who needs to change but it is time that we all take a look in the mirror. And I know some have had really difficult childhoods for that I’m sorry. As an empath even if I did not have the traumatic experience personally I took on others pain as my own but I know now I serve better by setting boundaries using my gifts to help without taking on another’s energy completely.
I now realize that I can set healthy boundaries, as children and many adults we are not aware of this unless we are taught, so we may take on our teachers, parents, friends, coworkers, grandparents, society in general’s pain and suffering. And we question why so many children act out, but yet punish them in ways that fosters this painful energy within by withholding recess, by making them sit still not able to express what is going on, by refusing creative fun ways of expression, so they suffer in silence and the cycle continues.
I believe we need a change across the board, it begins with the adults, schools, we need to be open to the children in the world now and the new children coming in as these children are the way showers, the earth angels, the light workers of the future. With great empathy, comes sensitivity and the price of sensitivity is…..well sensitivity this means a new system of teaching to add in mindfulness, learning how to center ourselves, learning to have more compassion for one another and using our gift of intuition. Learning how to love ourselves, teaching that our self-worth and perception of self is one of the most valuable lessons to know.
The fight fire with fire method only adds to disaster, we must begin to teach all traits are to be celebrated and not put so many labels on children and people in general. We could thrive in a society that trusted and lead with their hearts, our greatest creators, inventors used their gift of intuition, sat in rooms for hours with their breath, expanding their minds to connect to the inspired brilliance that we see in so many things we use today.
Imagine where we could be if we allowed our children to use their natural gift of creating and didn’t try to stifle it by telling them their too loud; be quiet, or your to shy be more assertive. Our loud one’s could be our world leaders, our shy ones the greatest inventors and thinkers but we may never know because we taught them to be someone they aren’t.