Subconcious Beliefs

I have taken a moment to step back even more, to dive deep and do the much needed inner work, a time to really slow down (I didn’t know it was even possible to slow down even more), to be with my family, to continue to exist, be and in this beingness I have found that I am whole and complete. That despite the break from “working outside of the home”, a lot of internal work has taken place. There is no manual to life but when we connect with the true self we are our greatest guide, we can remember our truth and unlearn the beliefs that no longer hold true, no longer work for us, we tap into our intuition and allow The Universal Energy to guide us (knowing now we are the Universe).

I have felt the Universe within, the collective, the ups and downs, the sadness, anger, fear as well as the love, the expansion and through a lot of self love and radical self care have experienced the integration of the Ego, the falling away of the false belief system. Can step back and be the compassionate witness. The ascension process that I’ve heard so much about has literally played out within me from descension to working my way up. I have ascended from inner pits of hell the ultimate fear to heaven the ultimate love. I have never read the bible but my understanding is we are “it”, we are the stories, the stories being metaphors for how we ascend, how we live life, to be the co-creators, the masters of our own lives connected to source. As we all are taken on this journey through ascension there may be some fearful emotions that come up, life may be difficult, or you can ride the wave surrendering the whole way knowing all is here and showing up in your life for you to help you.

Either way, now I understand when I was told by my higher self, the highest aspect of self, my guides and Angels (which are really all layers and aspects of me, of self here to help on this journey of remembering) that I am a seed planter, a way shower, a light worker. I realize I am exactly where I need to be so I can help someone that may be a day behind me, a month, year, etc to help bring guidance and healing into their lives. Realizing with every channelled message written or spoken there is a healing frequency that comes with it. I was told I would heal with my messages, sound, color, in many different ways. But it wasn’t until my breakthrough in May that I now understand what that means. In the midst of it I was told to go to my blog, as I was in extreme fear I began to read and something amazing began to happen, I began to lift up, raise my frequency, I was wrapped in an orb of light. I was being shown part of why I am here now.

The attached audio was recorded a couple of months ago (after a lunar eclipse) but goes so perfectly with this message I am ready to share now. Since then there is so much I want to share about how I have gained so much more inner strength, feel amazing, balanced, free and joyful (and you wouldn’t believe some of the stuff that has taken place, it’s like a test from the Universe to show me once I really truly love myself, have a solid consistent practice that includes Kundalini Yoga, amongst other tools and really committed to my wholeness, the outer world stuff can’t touch me, it no longer rocks me because I know the truth of who I am, my power and my worth).

Thank you for being a part of my journey. I love you! So much more to come. Exciting!!!!

Celebrate theDivineFeminine (May the Month of Mary)

To all my beautiful perfect women and girls on the Planet. My sisters. I hope you know how loved you are, how powerful you are, how perfect you are, how whole and complete you are just as you are. May you find solace in knowing that this a time for us to rejoice, to come together, to stand fully in our soul’s truth.

I have a connection with the Divine Mother and although I thought this connection began with my awakening, this connection has always been there. On so many occasions the room would fill with the smell of roses, the way her loving presence showed me how I was already embodying the Divine, the way she whispered ” Go within and you will find purpose”. I would be awoken at night to her speaking to me, bringing me from fear to love in a quickness. Her reassurance that everything will be okay and to always remember “You are my daughter and I Love you more than you know”. Her presence is powerful and over flowing with unconditional love. We are all connected to her and many other powerful, loving Goddesses, Masters, women that have pathed the way for us now. To fully embody what it is to be a beautiful Divine Being in form.

I used to say the Lord’s prayer every night and at some point it began to dawn on me that as I did the sign of the cross “in the name of the father, the son and the holy spirit” the Mother was missing??? This baffled me so I would add “in the name of the father , the son, the holy spirit and the Divine Mother”. I could feel a shift take place that brought up feelings around how women of the past were treated (seemed to be left out, or at least in the Catholic Religion that I grew up with, there is little mention of women). We all have a gift of intuition and as a woman if you feel shame around it, most likely you were considered very powerful and a threat due to your gifts of creativity, to using your inner knowing. Around this time last year I had past life experiences come up, of men coming after me, wanting to take my power away. Experiences of feeling and watching from the eyes of Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene as they watched beloved Jesus on the cross. I felt their pain, their sadness and saw through the eyes of Jesus as well as he watched his mother and his beloved watch his soul leave his body. When I asked, “Why am I seeing this?, how could I be seeing and feeling this?” I was told to stop crucifying myself. Stop beating myself up for my past, for who I am, all the guilt and shame I had built around being a feminine woman, around sex, around my body, around motherhood, in so many ways I was crucifying myself over and over and over again. If we are not aware of another way, another option than we do what we are conditioned to do but there is a place within us all that knows what is truth.

This is why it is so important to become conscious, to ask questions, to know what our motives are around our actions. Is is old programming, old teachings that taught us if we are in a woman’s body, we are lesser than? That taught us that there can’t be a healthy balance of both the masculine and feminine energy that is within all of us. Within each of us, we in form can embody both and celebrate both of these energies equally, as well as the gender we have taken on in this lifetime. All I know is as I become more and more aware, I can now look at my husband and celebrate his strengths and look at myself and celebrate mine as a woman.

I hope every women knows how worthy she is of love and can love herself with great grace, beauty and wisdom. And the hope that every man respects women and can see the great power she holds and the power we gain as we work together and not against each other.

Last year as I was doing a lot of inner healing a moment that I felt I didn’t know where to turn I prayed, the light began to get really bright and almost change color, as the room had a golden hue. I picked up a pen and began to write, my heart expanded so big I felt I was in the center of it and as I did I smelled roses. This is the message from Mother Mary that I received to help heal the inner child:

I want to release her of any fear and sadness by asking her Angels of the love and light to surround her with the light of pure Divine Love, to Zero her out of all that does not server her, all that does not belong to her, to allow her to breathe, with every in breath expanding the love within, directly connected to the purest form of love, bliss, joy.  Knowing this is the sweet spot, her birthright, to be able to connect directly to source, to connect with her higher power, surrounded and protected with pure Divine light at all times.  Until I can show her how to do this on her own to empower, cleanse and uplift her.  As her Divine Mother, she is released of all guilt, worry, shame, doubt, negativity, into the light to allow her Divine team of the light to dissolve all negativity, transmuted into pure positive loving energy.  Grounded in her truth of who she really is, a beautiful, confident, loving being of light herself, a diamond star that shines bright.