Dark Night of the Soul

As I come up to the 2 year mark after my Dark Night of the Soul experience, the Divine guidance I receive is “share the experience”. No more tip toeing around, people are being awoken and some may not make it through unless they know what they are experiencing. Although very difficult, it really is the biggest blessing in disguise and when some of the most profound transformations take place. I compare it to a caterpillar going through it’s many stages of becoming a butterfly. It can not be stopped, otherwise this Divine intervention will not allow your wings to break free from the cocoon and the beautiful butterfly may never fully emerge into her greatness. It’s when we descend into the darkness so the light can be shined upon it. To fully heal our shadows, like an initiation into another layer of our truth. Out of this most uncomfortable experience we are shown the Truth, so our soul can fully emerge and integrate to stay in alignment on our path into our life’s mission. It is the death of the false self (some call it the Ego) to allow the soul to fully integrate and union with God. During this integration process, everything emerges and can feel like one disaster after another where old lifeless patterns are resurfacing again and again so we can stop the B.S. and exam our lives with a fine tooth comb.

Our soul will no longer allow the excuses, will no longer allow us to play small and if we do, we shall not sulk in a corner and feel pity or play the victim any longer. We must accept where we are and who we are. Our soul knows the power we hold within and needs things to be shaken up to wake us out of this sleep walking path that we’ve been on. It is such a bizarre thing to go through and for many this Shamanic initiation process in it’s realness, are shown the mystical parts of life, where we have to stop asking “how did that just happen?”, sometimes we need to accept the miracles of life. Accept that there is higher power greater than us, through true surrender. When we can fully fall to our knees and say “Dear God, I don’t know how to do this”. Which really was the only way I personally was able to get through this process, when I stopped fighting, when I stopped running and stopped hiding and faced the demons. I am in the process of writing about this experience, as part of my creation and to help those going through this spiritual crisis from being diagnosed as a psychological one. More and more people are being possessed by fear so that we can move through it and emerge into the loving, compassionate beings we truly are. As we are all undergoing a massive awakening to heal as the collective to remember the Oneness of Unity Consciousness. The poem below puts the experience in it’s simplest form (I wrote this while deep in the healing process after a period of what most would call psychosis but was really was my awakening. I was in and out of different realities, dimensions, living life on both sides and realize now I was being shown what we are all going through and what is to come).

Dark of the Soul
Ocean waves moving in motion like our never-ending crashing emotions, smashing against the tide when we don’t trust our inner guide,
Everywhere I go, nowhere to hide from the anger and disappointment that I feel inside, the resentment that arises from memories when I felt I didn’t have a voice or a choice.

Would not, could not speak up and out for myself,
At work, at home, it seems everywhere I turn, carefully walking on eggshells, as slowly pieces inside of me began to chip away at all my dreams and desires until I completely lost my way.
Ungrounded, astounded by the tearful, fearful person in the mirror who has lost her natural state to want to create.
Job-less, car-less, emotion-less, devotion-less…….a sad feeling of emptiness.

STOP….Breathe, take a moment to be present, face this fear, do not give it any more power and do not allow all that self-abusive chatter to get louder and louder.
Have I really lost everything or have I just began?
Remembering who I really am.

Through strength, faith and true desire to create, remembering I came here to thrive not just survive.
Live for today and a better tomorrow, leave all the self-doubt and abuse for a positive attitude and a life of gratitude.
I believe in myself, for within is the pure love, truth, the light of my soul, my inner spirit that chose to live Heaven on Earth
With A dream, A desire, beyond expansion with passion and fire.

Planetary Shift 2020

The major shift continues to take place across the planet now.  As we have been telling you to prepare for the planetary change by letting go and allowing. Now is the time for a major shift in humanity, a shift in perception, opening people’s awareness, to come together as the collective consciousness. To understand the oneness, you feel the shift and this shift is taking place worldwide. The great release, the great purge of negative energy, energetic emotions, as it is time for the way showers, the teachers, the light workers, the spiritual leaders of the world to take action, to shine their light. To bring humanity together in peace, love, compassion, as your planet needs it now in order for humanity to progress collectively to begin the ripple effect of uplifting out of the darkness and into the light. Remember it begins with you, as you ascend, as you connect directly to divine source energy, the uplifting begins. You are powerful, full of love, compassion. These messages are much-needed now to help the seekers, non-seekers, the one’s that are not yet aware, the one’s that are now being awoken, as we help you to show you the way, you help others.

You must trust, have faith, believe in a better way, to remember who you really are, releasing the limiting beliefs, deep within the subconscious.  Connect to pure source, to bring back the truth of who humanity truly is.  For now is the time and it begins with you, beautiful loving being of light, it’s time for more and more people to be of service to others in a loving compassionate way. And as the wave begins collectively you all rise above out of darkness, density, negativity and into the light, beauty and truth.  Trust, have faith and stand in your truth, let go of the limiting beliefs for collectively the planet is ready for a change. Believe it can be done, help others and show them the way. Call upon us but remember to listen for the guidance within.

Remember all shall pass, the heaviness, the deep purge, once fully released is vibrancy, God connection, clarity, light filled, celebration of life. Through this healing process of humanity, compassion on a deeper level for one another will collectively be shown, be felt, move into the heart, more thinking from the heart, that will uplift and bring togetherness, to feel the oneness, to remember the truth, to know through a new awareness all is well. The falsehood of what is from the past, the false of old beliefs will shift the perception collectively to speak up, speak out, feel the presence of love more easily. People are ready for great change. Be ready, stay heart centered, stand in your truth of who you have always been and there will be hope for a better today, a better tomorrow.

The Ultimate Experiment

We are all players in this game or experiment called Life.

When we begin asking the big questions what is my purpose? Why am I here? What is the point of “LIFE”? The search for the answers begin, trying to seek out who has them. Perhaps this person has “it” figured out, or this one……and in my search I’ve come to realize I don’t think anyone has ALL the answers. We are just all searching for our happiness, for true joy.

We all contribute, with our uniqueness, we all offer something to link us to this big huge puzzle, the Universe.  All of it so real but yet not of it at the same time. An illusion, a game, an experiment. The way I see it we are all God-consciousness moving up and down the zero light line within the light body of our higher selves. Our direct connection from pure Source from up above and connected to the light at the core of the Whole New Earth. One huge heart space and within that heart is consciousness, the void on different levels/layers and depending on where you are within the higher self, will dictate what you are feeling.  So raise your vibe for the higher your vibration the more inline you are with the absolute, truth, the truth for humanity to live joyfully, to have several experiences to learn and grow from but ultimately to remember who you are.  All knowing and pure love.

Duality was created by man there really is no right or wrong, no good or bad just how it makes you feel dictates whether you perceive an action as good. So the reason I continuously repeat choose love, choose what brings you joy is so that you can stay in alignment with what feels good so you can continue to rise up, as you raise your vibe all that you are destined for is in place in alignment with you.

All the sychronisties events, people, places, situations, we are master manifestors so believe in what makes you feel good, pull yourself into your physical bodies because these are our game players that we are given to be able to have the human experience but at the same time don’t be so attached to the physical (learn to detach from the physical, the material as the material is a short-lived high that eventually fizzles out once the initial excitement of receiving it wears off). The miracles that every cell regenerating, self-healing, so the more energized you feel within your own body the more feel good action you will take, the more light and electricity is generated to keep the planet ever-growing, moving, expanding, breathing keeping it alive, we are all of it and it exist as we continue to exist.  So go within to get in touch with your highest self, expand your awareness, shift your perception to that of love and joy, pull your energy (your power) back into your physical body, keep calling in pure Divine love to continue to feel good and expand.

Subconcious Beliefs

I have taken a moment to step back even more, to dive deep and do the much needed inner work, a time to really slow down (I didn’t know it was even possible to slow down even more), to be with my family, to continue to exist, be and in this beingness I have found that I am whole and complete. That despite the break from “working outside of the home”, a lot of internal work has taken place. There is no manual to life but when we connect with the true self we are our greatest guide, we can remember our truth and unlearn the beliefs that no longer hold true, no longer work for us, we tap into our intuition and allow The Universal Energy to guide us (knowing now we are the Universe).

I have felt the Universe within, the collective, the ups and downs, the sadness, anger, fear as well as the love, the expansion and through a lot of self love and radical self care have experienced the integration of the Ego, the falling away of the false belief system. Can step back and be the compassionate witness. The ascension process that I’ve heard so much about has literally played out within me from descension to working my way up. I have ascended from inner pits of hell the ultimate fear to heaven the ultimate love. I have never read the bible but my understanding is we are “it”, we are the stories, the stories being metaphors for how we ascend, how we live life, to be the co-creators, the masters of our own lives connected to source. As we all are taken on this journey through ascension there may be some fearful emotions that come up, life may be difficult, or you can ride the wave surrendering the whole way knowing all is here and showing up in your life for you to help you.

Either way, now I understand when I was told by my higher self, the highest aspect of self, my guides and Angels (which are really all layers and aspects of me, of self here to help on this journey of remembering) that I am a seed planter, a way shower, a light worker. I realize I am exactly where I need to be so I can help someone that may be a day behind me, a month, year, etc to help bring guidance and healing into their lives. Realizing with every channelled message written or spoken there is a healing frequency that comes with it. I was told I would heal with my messages, sound, color, in many different ways. But it wasn’t until my breakthrough in May that I now understand what that means. In the midst of it I was told to go to my blog, as I was in extreme fear I began to read and something amazing began to happen, I began to lift up, raise my frequency, I was wrapped in an orb of light. I was being shown part of why I am here now.

The attached audio was recorded a couple of months ago (after a lunar eclipse) but goes so perfectly with this message I am ready to share now. Since then there is so much I want to share about how I have gained so much more inner strength, feel amazing, balanced, free and joyful (and you wouldn’t believe some of the stuff that has taken place, it’s like a test from the Universe to show me once I really truly love myself, have a solid consistent practice that includes Kundalini Yoga, amongst other tools and really committed to my wholeness, the outer world stuff can’t touch me, it no longer rocks me because I know the truth of who I am, my power and my worth).

Thank you for being a part of my journey. I love you! So much more to come. Exciting!!!!