Are you an Empath?

For over the past year my journey began when I wanted to understand what an Empath is because of my children. And I wanted to help, I wanted to fix, to heal….I dove so deep into all of it. Completely consumed by information and in the process I began to find myself. They were fine, I was not, through my projection of all my fears onto them I created distance and separation, in trying to protect them I was hurting the people I loved.

It did not fully hit until recently that the reason I have struggled with relationships my whole life from friendships, to romantic relationships to the rebellious teen and young adult self, work relationships (always choosing the same bosses and work environment). Is because I am an Empath, a highly sensitive person. The relationship I struggled with most is the one with myself. Never understanding why I felt I couldn’t handle the normal day-to-day life without feeling defeated, depleted, anger, resentment, anxiety…so much negativity but yet I was always the fun-loving girl. The one that could turn a funeral into a party, enjoyed life, took chances, was always ready to explore, said yes to having fun. And then things began to feel so hard.

My deep hurt wasn’t mine all the time, I was surrounded by love my whole life but put up a wall or at least tried to because their pain became my pain. I did everything I could to numb this pain, avoid feeling, but I still soaked it up. We are all addicted to something and although I judged other’s for theirs when you have to face your own it’s like looking the devil in the eyes. And it will make you feel like it will forever have a hold on you but once you can look yourself in the mirror and admit to your own personal demons I see you and even in my own steps to release you no matter how big or small the steps may seem it no longer can rule your life because the person who wants you to face it, is you.

During my breakdown I had episodes of traumatic memories replayed in my mind, my body, the fear was so deafening it was more than my system could take. Our moments that frighten us the most, that shake us up, that stop us are telling us something. If we don’t stop and listen, take notice and start looking within and what the people around us are showing us in those moments we lose out on life’s biggest lessons. The events in our lives are teaching us so we can grow, evolve, otherwise what is the point? Why did a love one choose to leave if we didn’t learn from their loss? Why did we experience a wake up call if it doesn’t make us ask bigger questions, of why are we here? Is there more to life than what I see or know? Do I have a bigger life’s purpose than what I am doing now? And if so what steps do I take to know that purpose?

Begin by going within, sit, stop, listen, take notice because if you have had these experiences consider yourself lucky. If you are reading this it’s because the Universe needs you to choose love and share that love with others. To be part of the much-needed uncovering, unfolding and release to know you are a light to the world and your light is needed now. And if you too are an Empath, a sensitive person and have felt like sometimes life is too much to handle, know that there is a way to make this your biggest super power, your greatest gift. I am finally at a point in my life that I love and embrace my gifts, I feel deeply and can help heal on a deep level as well. Contact me below for soul transformation healing.

Infinite Totality

unconditional-love-2When we can look at life as the infinite totality of limitless possibilities, knowing love itself is eternal, we can look at it as the journey it is. Every ending just means there is now a new beginning, like a circle, the circle of life that is always flowing never-ending, sometimes it may be difficult to see where one chapter ends and another begins but if we can look at every experience in our lives as an opportunity to grow and learn then we realize our life always has purpose. Even in times when maybe we have drifted away from that eternal love, from source, from our true purpose of living a joyful life full of love for ourselves to share this purpose with others to come together as a collective to raise each other up through creative abundance, through community, through an infinite supply of source energy; love, we are still on purpose. Energy is ever flowing and as Albert Einstein states “Energy cannot be created or destroyed it can only be changed from one form to another”.

So the journey itself is what life is all about, there is no ending. For even when we leave our physical bodies, our love still exist through the people in our lives, our spirit lives on perhaps to help those we leave behind to continue to learn the life lessons with the ultimate lesson being self-love, approval and acceptance. If we can’t love ourselves truly and care for ourselves it makes it difficult to truly love others from a place of authenticity, without condition because now we are tapping into our own energy and giving of ourselves completely feeling that this is love. We get lost in this false concept of love.

We are all conduits, a vehicle in which source moves and experiences life through us, so if source is infinite and we can wrap our minds around the concept that infinite source energy is ever-moving, ever-changing pure love that as we stay connected, we embody this pure love and allow source to shine through us, allowing us to share in love but knowing we are always connected to our infinite supply, so if we are feeling depleted, then we are using our own energy and are not allowing pure love in.

It is through fear that we lose that connection to source, that we begin to rely on our own strength rather than allowing source to channel through us in abundantly creative ways because we are scared that we are not in control of our own lives, at some point we were taught this or observed this behavior that became ingrained in us, that life is hard and we must push through it. Yes in our own suffering we can learn some of the greatest lessons but it is when we stay stuck in the suffering, in the past stories, stay stuck in fear that we stay the victim. Shadow work is a great way of healing as long as you can face it, learn from it and release it. So again it comes in the unlearning, uncovering of all the limiting beliefs that we picked up along the way, to allow our truest whole self to emerge and allow love in to be lead to follow the path of ease and flow, the path that exist with your name on it because that path is your birthright. Anything else that feels difficult is false. So surrender to love, be open to allowing and receiving the infinite creative abundance of pure source energy.

Intuition & God’s Presence

Art is an expression of ourselves, our world, our life.  I was feeling unsettled, as if I should be doing more, should be further along, knowing I was once again creating a false story. When I begin to feel this way I have gone back to picking up my paint brush to get in creative flow, a reminder of who I really am. I connect with art because there is no need for perfection, in some cases the imperfection in pieces is what makes it so perfect, so effortless, so easy. When I get out of my own way, I can allow myself to flow. When I see the vision in my mind and know exactly what it will look like but without a plan and as I paint sometimes the vision shifts, changes and that’s okay because I can feel the flow and go with it. I feel my highest self, the energy of joy, as the top of my head will tingle, feeling the full body YES, you are in bliss, in flow, not judging yourself, not doubting, just free-flowing. Why can’t it be like this all the time? (I hear my spirit ask), just allow me to take you by the hand and show you how. Trust, please now it’s now time to trust. Trust that you/we (your inner guidance system, your inner being) knows, that Source knows where you feel this loving presence most. (As I am typing I see light shining up from the keys, letting me know I’m in the presence of God right now). For anytime I am creating, I am being, enjoying life, I am in the presence of pure love and even in the times I am not I know God is still present, it just may not be as obvious because we are usually clouded by negative thoughts.

As we learn to trust our gift of intuition, given to us by God (I believe to make our lives easier) so we can communicate, feel and know this loving presence that guides us in a way that let’s us know you are not ever alone, I am with you and I’m here to help you embody pure love. Life is easier if you can let go and let God in, let love in. (This whole time it’s as if I am a stenographer except hearing a small, loving voice speak to me as I type). I have questioned this voice for way to long, I can no longer deny this voice I hear is the voice of God (and it shows up in many different ways, in ways that I will accept it and am willing to hear it and comes through everyone not just a chosen few). Even through difficult times, that same voice reminds me to breathe, I’m here, I’ve never left you, calls my name, sometimes may tell me things I don’t want to hear but know it’s what I need to hear. Our intuition, is this God….the light within that moves us in creative ways to lean towards love or one of the many ways that God connects, speaks, moves, feels, allows the energy of source to use us a vessel to allow pure love to shine through.

 

Trust your Intuition

I am learning to take accountability for my life, knowing I create my own reality while also leaning on a higher power that works with, for and on my behalf. From this knowing remember that anything that seems to be happening to you is happening for you. Perhaps to show you an ongoing pattern that now you can finally break free from. Learn and grow by taking a new approach, perhaps not trying to control the outcome, not pushing so hard to fix everything and everyone around you (focus on self-love). Maybe you can pray on it, send love & healing to the situation, TRUST and then let it go. Surrender it over to the Universe, to God…knowing all is truly well.

I am following the wisdom that comes through me and for the first time in a while I can breathe and not just in moments of meditation but throughout the day. I feel a sense of peace and freedom. As I continue to ascend and raise my vibe I am learning to let go of the victim mentality. Knowing the Universe wants to support me and all I want and need exist in the now. All I need to do is be open to receiving. Allow to be guided, guidance shows up in many different ways. Sometimes it will either spring you into inspired action or say slow down, stop.

Focus on the positive, put your energy into what will bring more joy, what will continue to raise you up, as you raise your vibe the energy around you raises, your frequency will match what you are putting out. As I was told by my inner guidance system, my intuition recently while dealing with a couple of life lessons “these things have a way of working themselves out” and I chose to trust my intuition. I said a prayer, sent healing energy to the situation and then I let it go (stop obsessing, let go more, trust your intuition, set ego aside and allow faith to take over). My intuition was correct by the way and it ended up working itself out and as usual all is well.

If you feel calm, relaxed, joyful, excited, motivated just an overall feeling of wellbeing your following and trusting your intuition. If you feel the opposite depleted, defeated by life, low energy, negativity that is your inner guidance system telling you stop, go the other way, this is not natural, do something different.

Listen to music, sing, dance, rest, take deep breaths, watch something that makes you laugh, or simply do nothing, cry get it out….it’s okay to acknowledge the pain to allow it to move through you, it will be okay but please stop pushing, stop adding to the resistance, stop giving “it” your energy, if you have tried everything and nothing is working let it go. Listen to your heart, your spirit wants to help lift you up, call on your Angels, ask the Universe for help. “Dear God, I don’t know what to do but I trust you have a plan, I hand this over to you?” Ask for a sign. As soon as you ask the Universal Energies begin to send you love and work happens behind the scenes. Let go, trust, allow, be open to receiving and know you are worthy to receive something even greater than you can imagine.

The Ultimate Experiment

We are all players in this game or experiment called Life.

When we begin asking the big questions what is my purpose? Why am I here? What is the point of “LIFE”? The search for the answers begin, trying to seek out who has them. Perhaps this person has “it” figured out, or this one……Personally I’ve never been a “self-help” book junkie but I do read what inspires me, as well as watch inspirational videos and in my search I’ve come to realize I don’t think anyone has ALL the answers. We are just all searching for our happiness, for true joy.

We all contribute, with our uniqueness, we all offer something to link us to this big huge puzzle, the Universe.  All of it so real but yet not of it at the same time. An illusion, a game, an experiment. The way I see it we are all God-consciousness moving up and down the zero light line within the light body of our higher selves. Our direct connection from pure Source from up above and connected to the light at the core of the Whole New Earth. One huge heart space and within that heart is consciousness, the void on different levels/layers and depending on where you are within the higher self, will dictate what you are feeling.  So raise your vibe for the higher your vibration the more inline you are with the absolute, truth, the truth for humanity to live joyfully, to have several experiences to learn and grow from but ultimately to remember who you are.  All knowing and pure love.

Duality was created by man there really is no right or wrong, no good or bad just how it makes you feel dictates whether you perceive an action as good. So the reason I continuously repeat choose love, choose what brings you joy is so that you can stay in alignment with what feels good so you can continue to rise up, as you raise your vibe all that you are destined for is in place in alignment with you.

All the sychronisties events, people, places, situations, we are master manifestors so believe in what makes you feel good, pull yourself into your physical bodies because these are our game players that we are given to be able to have the human experience but at the same time don’t be so attached to the physical (learn to detach from the physical, the material as the material is a short-lived high that eventually fizzles out once the initial excitement of receiving it wears off). The miracles that every cell regenerating, self-healing, so the more energized you feel within your own body the more feel good action you will take, the more light and electricity is generated to keep the planet ever-growing, moving, expanding, breathing keeping it alive, we are all of it and it exist as we continue to exist.  So go within to get in touch with your highest self, expand your awareness, shift your perception to that of love and joy, pull your energy (your power) back into your physical body, keep calling in pure Divine love to continue to feel good and expand.