Card of the Week

(Starseed Oracle by Rebecca Campbell)

Earth SchoolLife lessons. Soul growth. Study. Higher learning.

Planet Earth is a great initiation for the soul and life lessons are the curriculum for which we enroll. These aren’t one-time lessons but themes we choose to circle around, deepening our experience of them as we make our way through the spiral of life. Life lessons aren’t only about getting it right – they’re also about getting it wrong. Remembering that Earth is a planet of polarity helps with this understanding. Each year the study deepens more and more.

If you pull this card while you’re going through a difficult time, you’re being prompted to remember that your soul came here to grow and learn. Try not to look at difficult times as ‘getting it wrong’ – instead, see them as opportunities for soul growth. If you can find a way to grow and soften your heart through the highs and lows, your soul is most definitely growing, which is the whole point!

Pulling this card can also mean that you’re being called to embark on a new area of study or growth. This could be through structured learning, such as university, school, or a training course. If you’re having difficulties in a relationship, you’re being reminded that these are opportunities for soul growth – after all, relationships are known as the number one way that we grow as souls while we’re here on Earth.

△ Starseed Soul Inquiry: How are you being called to grow or learn? △⠀

Authenticity- Take your Power Back

Channeled Message 7/23/2020


A journey to uncovering the truth of who I am…our true souls essence.

This journey will be ongoing but at our core we know who we are, the process of transformation and change to get there will be both thrilling and terrifying.

I say this because the pain of not knowing oneself is due to all the patterning and inherited beliefs of others. I was shown through a vision, that many have spent so many years molding into what another expects them to be and we keep trying to live someone else’s life, and are trying to model someone who is also trying to live someone else’s life. A vicious cycle. We have been programmed and mind controlled by forces that do not have humanities best interest at heart. We are not only in a spiritual crisis right now but an identity crisis as well. As little kids we were told “Just be yourself”. To be our self is to know thy Self, the True Self. We must understand that right now in the face of these challenges we are reprogramming and deprogramming false narratives, beliefs and corrupt systems that are breaking down and hold no true power over us. Although they have tried for centuries, now is the time to embody our sovereignty and to take our power back. It’s time to break our silence!!

This audio message came through during my morning practice as I ground, connect to my Higher Self and the Divine Mother. I am being nudged to share.

New Moon Message 7/20/2020

Action. Follow your intuition before it makes sense. (The Starseed Oracle by Rebecca Campbell)

You’re being called to take grounded action in response to your soul’s calling. To start where you are and begin building in a consistent way. So many people stop themselves from living a soul-led life because they’re waiting to know the destination before taking the first step. But intuition doesn’t work like that. Our soul is always calling us, every moment of every day.

The way to find yourself living in harmony with the cosmos is to listen to your soul’s baby calls and whisphers each and every day, and to take grounded action in the direction of those calls and whispers. You’re being encouraged to start small. Bite-sized! To put one foot in front of the other. To do one thing every day. To break things down into achievable tasks.

Time on Earth goes slower than on other planets. This may cause frustration for Starseeds, who can expect a faster pace of manifestation and thus give up before the seeds begin to sprout. If you resonate with that, it’s time to opt for consistency over urgency. Time to take baby steps in the direction of your calling. To remember that you don’t need to have it all figured out or know exactly where the path is leading you. You don’t have to know every single step along the way before you set out on your great journey. You just need to take the next step.

Startseed Soul Inquiry: What’s one simple baby step you can take in the direction of your soul’s calling?

Self Discovery

Can turning off our capacity to feel shut down our capacity to heal? Our nervous system is working on over drive, at some point can shut down due to overload?

For the many years that I spent numbing out and chemically functioning through life, either on anti-depressants, sleeping pills, over the counter meds, drugs, alcohol, yet I hid it so well. I was still “functioning” and “responsible”, still doing my job as a mother, wife, an employee, taking care of our home but inside felt lost. As I’ve mentioned before, in 2017 I finally gave in to meditation, (specifically a Kundalini Yoga meditation called Kirtan Kriya; a simple mantra repeating Sa Ta Na Ma while touching my thumb with each sound to each finger tip). I was so desperate to feel change, to feel better, was wanting to move away from substances and also needed to try something different it in hopes that my daughter would try it as well because at a young age she was experiencing anxiety (which really was my undealt emotions). I had no expectations, honestly I was almost wanting to say “ha, see it doesn’t work for everyone”. But out of the blue I began to feel different, calmer, focused, clear for the first time.

The part that comes next not sure everyone will experience but rather quickly my senses began to sharpen, heighten, unexpectedly one night I heard guitar strings strumming out of no where, I would hear my name being called, even heard a choir of angels after a silent 45 minute meditation, flooded with different smells, strange at first but then I began to feel a rush of love, elation, bliss, ecstasy. I had hit that sweet spot where I was in a elevated state of awareness. I felt so connected to God, to the Universe that I couldn’t wait to meditate again. Experience after experience of a mystical loving nature. I began to connect with Angelic energy, my highest self, just an all loving presence and felt so present in presence. It was a feeling that surpassed any drug, as if we know it is possible to reach that point of absolute and we chase it our whole lives through our addictions. And not just chemical/substance abuse but chasing the high that shopping gives us, that gambling, that eating, that relationships, that even stress gives us, to fill the emotional void. Except for a whole year I was able to maintain this feeling even outside of meditation. Not the elation part but a steady feeling of joy, nothing bothered me, I had reached a level of clarity. It was like my Divine mind, heart and soul were all in alignment with God, the all that is almost all the time.

And just like everything else in my life, when I thought I mastered that I moved away from Kundalini Yoga and honestly never tried the array of breath work it provides along with the science to back up why the sound current of the mantras, the hand movements, the breathing techniques help to reprogram our subconscious mind and nervous system to bring us to whole balance.

Prior to the Dark Night of the Soul experience in May 2018, I would say around February, March 2018 I began to have a lot of self doubt, fear began to creep back in, after I became attuned to Reiki and began self healing which in turn made me take a deeper look at what I could no longer run from, the lies I had been telling myself. See although I was doing everything “right” on the outside, I really had not done the inner work (a complete spiritual bypass) and on my soul’s path it required that I have a deeper understanding of my blocks. Kundalini Yoga, is the yoga of awareness combined with Reiki Energy healing there was no more pretending, no more tolerance for the false self anymore. Although I try to stay away from labels now, I didn’t know I was an empath, I didn’t know we are all psychically gifted, I thought only those that were worthy not me were so inclined. As the planet continues to shift we are waking up more and more every day. Our level of awareness will continue to feel uncomfortable unless we do something to truly bring balance to our whole system.

I’ve been told we have the technology to keep up with this technological time we live in, but this technology is within all. Through practices that use the breath, sound, mantra, stillness, movement, ways of working with the body, we can reach a level of awareness of Conciousness that surpasses any computer program because we our Conciousness which is the cloud of wisdom, our heart is the mother board, and our Soul and Spirit are the directors that orchestrate it all alongside God, the light.

Serenity &Peace

10 Of Water (The Good Tarot by Colette Baron-Reid)


10 Of Water- Serenity, peace, good fortune, well-being (10 is the energy of completion and firm endings of cycles, manifestation, where we experience concrete results. And water is associated with our emotions, our Heart and the way that our feelings move things along).

All is well with the world and with me. Well-being is my natural state. Everything I need comes to me easily and effortlessly. I feel joy and express it to others as I look around and see all the love that we share. I take pleasure in all I have accomplished. Whatever attention I receive or don’t receive, I am serene, for I know full well what it took for me get where I am. I celebrate myself and all who traveled the road with me and feel grateful to Spirit for being my companion always.

Twice this week I asked what do I need to know? What is the message you have for me that is for the highest and greatest good? And twice this card was given to me as a message but not just to me but to you as well. At first I hesitated in sharing as it felt insensitive and I felt guilty for feeling good, during this time when so many are feeling so far from peace and well-being. Except this is exactly where I have been and what I have been feeling. In the midst of fear, chaos and uncertainty not just on the planet but within my own home, I feel love, I feel peace and I feel so certain that everything is okay. Yes I have moments of anxiousness but they quickly pass. I am sharing this message because this is what I have been told over and over and over again by the Guides, Angels and my Higher Self. All the hours of selfcare, of going within, of self reflection, of meditation, of yoga, journaling, Self Reiki practice, all the inner work I have done and many times just wanted to give up but was told “Please Vivian don’t give up”. They promised me all this “training”, that I had been doing was with great purpose and will make sense. That we have the technology and this technology exist within us, through our breath, we are upgrading our system. That I will be able to connect with Source and feel love even in the moments that can have most spiraling out of control.

The time is now to begin. As everyone can see systems are breaking down to create new one’s. Everyone wants to go back to normal but ask yourself was our old “normal” truly working? Perhaps we can ask our future selves what would a new “normal” look and feel like for you? Can you include something new or take something out of your daily “normal” routine to bring more peace and balance into your daily life. This is the time to begin to figure out what that may look like for you and your family. With lots of love to all.

Planetary Shift 2020

The major shift continues to take place across the planet now.  As we have been telling you to prepare for the planetary change by letting go and allowing. Now is the time for a major shift in humanity, a shift in perception, opening people’s awareness, to come together as the collective consciousness. To understand the oneness, you feel the shift and this shift is taking place worldwide. The great release, the great purge of negative energy, energetic emotions, as it is time for the way showers, the teachers, the light workers, the spiritual leaders of the world to take action, to shine their light. To bring humanity together in peace, love, compassion, as your planet needs it now in order for humanity to progress collectively to begin the ripple effect of uplifting out of the darkness and into the light. Remember it begins with you, as you ascend, as you connect directly to divine source energy, the uplifting begins. You are powerful, full of love, compassion. These messages are much-needed now to help the seekers, non-seekers, the one’s that are not yet aware, the one’s that are now being awoken, as we help you to show you the way, you help others.

You must trust, have faith, believe in a better way, to remember who you really are, releasing the limiting beliefs, deep within the subconscious.  Connect to pure source, to bring back the truth of who humanity truly is.  For now is the time and it begins with you, beautiful loving being of light, it’s time for more and more people to be of service to others in a loving compassionate way. And as the wave begins collectively you all rise above out of darkness, density, negativity and into the light, beauty and truth.  Trust, have faith and stand in your truth, let go of the limiting beliefs for collectively the planet is ready for a change. Believe it can be done, help others and show them the way. Call upon us but remember to listen for the guidance within.

Remember all shall pass, the heaviness, the deep purge, once fully released is vibrancy, God connection, clarity, light filled, celebration of life. Through this healing process of humanity, compassion on a deeper level for one another will collectively be shown, be felt, move into the heart, more thinking from the heart, that will uplift and bring togetherness, to feel the oneness, to remember the truth, to know through a new awareness all is well. The falsehood of what is from the past, the false of old beliefs will shift the perception collectively to speak up, speak out, feel the presence of love more easily. People are ready for great change. Be ready, stay heart centered, stand in your truth of who you have always been and there will be hope for a better today, a better tomorrow.

Rapid Change

The old, the new and the in between. As we continue to shed the old and integrate what seems to be the new which really is existence. The way in which we are being brought and guided to exist. To be human in “Being” not as much as doing but to be as we were always meant to be. To be is to know as I AM. I am love, worthy of love and not because of what I’ve done or who I’ve done and how I got here but who I Be here and now. Knowing I am worthy of love, able to embody my divinity as I am. This process can have us feeling many different ways. Some elated, some frustrated, clinging onto what was, trying to keep things the same but the energy is rapidly moving, creating change. It can feel disruptive, challenging and chaotic at times. Whatever it is you are experiencing, remember to be in the know, in the now, to have awareness, to be able to say I surrender, I don’t know or remember how to do this Universe, please help me. I allow you to lead me on this path my soul has chosen, to co-create directly with the creative source of all that is. Show me the way!

Then be open to allowing and receiving the guidance. Let go of the grips of control and allow. Stay grounded in your body, connected to the New Earth, centered within your heart space. Instead of things happening to us, imagine them happening through us. Prior to incarnation seeds were planted within and as we live life the seeds begin to burst and blossom. Certain experiences, pre-programmed, inevitable so try to relax into it. Try to enjoy the ride. So when I say surrender, this does not mean give up, it just means let it happen. Allow yourself to be free from exerting unnecessary energy. In fact the more you resist, the more what you don’t want may persist but when you relax, allow, observe, it is easier and we can even find love and enjoyment in moments that can have us feeling uneasy. If we just shift our perception and remember to begin our day by choosing love and open ourselves to receiving love by staying centered. Many of these experiences are a much needed necessary part of our self growth and discovery process.

Take advantage of the Full Moon Energies as they are here to assist and help you. Take a moment to sit, be quiet and allow the streams of light to enter in to assist, to uplift and help in your expansive evolutionary soul process.

Give yourself permission

Begin to really look at your habits and what you do on a day to day basis. Where do you focus a lot of your time and energy? Where are you energetically? Are you physically at home but your thoughts are at work, with your kids, your ex, etc? Are you a person that feels it’s not right to sit (equate that to laziness)? Do you have a difficult time giving yourself a break? Do you feel guilty when you rest as though if you are not constantly moving than you will get in trouble? Have you ever complained and used the phrase “I feel like I’m a slave to my kids or spouse” (could be that you actually set up a slave contract prior to incarnating that needs to be broken). If so, it’s now time to become aware of our patterns and intentionally do the opposite. In the middle of the day you could stop the busyness, lay down, take a nap, watch a funny show, read a book, do the opposite of what you normally would do and allow yourself to rest.

Give yourself permission to do nothing (what feels like non action is really a huge energy shift towards self-love). And ask your soul to help you with this, ask why do I have such a hard time allowing myself rest? The answers are there, you may receive them while walking, in meditation, doing the dishes but once you begin to ask, your soul will provide you with the answers because all the answers to your questions are already within you. Usually if you are asking a “should I do this ______? What I’ve been told is if I am asking it is usually so. Something to think about. The same goes for the opposite if you are a person that makes excuses, spends a lot of time watching t.v. or doing nothing perhaps it’s time to move your body, go for an intentional walk, clean out a draw or closet.

We cannot change our habits by continuing doing the same things, we need to either add or subtract something in our lives and we cannot receive the answers from the same consciousness that created the “problem”. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Well this is similar to that and although I don’t think we need to be hard on ourselves while trying to make these positive changes, as it has been so deeply ingrained in us to the things we do. Change is not easy but possible.

Subconcious Beliefs

I have taken a moment to step back even more, to dive deep and do the much needed inner work, a time to really slow down (I didn’t know it was even possible to slow down even more), to be with my family, to continue to exist, be and in this beingness I have found that I am whole and complete. That despite the break from “working outside of the home”, a lot of internal work has taken place. There is no manual to life but when we connect with the true self we are our greatest guide, we can remember our truth and unlearn the beliefs that no longer hold true, no longer work for us, we tap into our intuition and allow The Universal Energy to guide us (knowing now we are the Universe).

I have felt the Universe within, the collective, the ups and downs, the sadness, anger, fear as well as the love, the expansion and through a lot of self love and radical self care have experienced the integration of the Ego, the falling away of the false belief system. Can step back and be the compassionate witness. The ascension process that I’ve heard so much about has literally played out within me from descension to working my way up. I have ascended from inner pits of hell the ultimate fear to heaven the ultimate love. I have never read the bible but my understanding is we are “it”, we are the stories, the stories being metaphors for how we ascend, how we live life, to be the co-creators, the masters of our own lives connected to source. As we all are taken on this journey through ascension there may be some fearful emotions that come up, life may be difficult, or you can ride the wave surrendering the whole way knowing all is here and showing up in your life for you to help you.

Either way, now I understand when I was told by my higher self, the highest aspect of self, my guides and Angels (which are really all layers and aspects of me, of self here to help on this journey of remembering) that I am a seed planter, a way shower, a light worker. I realize I am exactly where I need to be so I can help someone that may be a day behind me, a month, year, etc to help bring guidance and healing into their lives. Realizing with every channelled message written or spoken there is a healing frequency that comes with it. I was told I would heal with my messages, sound, color, in many different ways. But it wasn’t until my breakthrough in May that I now understand what that means. In the midst of it I was told to go to my blog, as I was in extreme fear I began to read and something amazing began to happen, I began to lift up, raise my frequency, I was wrapped in an orb of light. I was being shown part of why I am here now.

The attached audio was recorded a couple of months ago (after a lunar eclipse) but goes so perfectly with this message I am ready to share now. Since then there is so much I want to share about how I have gained so much more inner strength, feel amazing, balanced, free and joyful (and you wouldn’t believe some of the stuff that has taken place, it’s like a test from the Universe to show me once I really truly love myself, have a solid consistent practice that includes Kundalini Yoga, amongst other tools and really committed to my wholeness, the outer world stuff can’t touch me, it no longer rocks me because I know the truth of who I am, my power and my worth).

Thank you for being a part of my journey. I love you! So much more to come. Exciting!!!!

Staying Balanced/Grounded (1st chakra: Root Chakra)

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We have many chakras within our body and in our subtle energy bodies as well. The seven main chakras, when balanced will have us feeling great joy, empowerment, love for self and others, feel connected to each other, feel in flow, life can feel easier, synchronicities are easily spotted like the Universe is constantly connecting the dots for us and bringing forth what we need next at any given moment. Abundance in all areas of life is felt, our awareness is broadened, we can take moments to pause and not be so reactive, feel a sense of total wellbeing, whole and complete. We can breathe long deep breaths, feel relaxed, grounded, energized and just have the total mind, body, soul connection in perfect coherence.

Think of our seven main chakras like spinning wheels within the body and the spine is what connects them all (the central location/ central nervous system). Imagine a tube of water of light that encases the spine that is in the center of our being it drops into the earth and connects to the light at the core of the earth and goes through the body out through the crown of our heads up above and connects to the light of the heavens to the source of all creation. This tube of light and the water that flows wants to be free flowing a constant, peaceful movement like a river. If we are out of balance it means the water is either stagnant, moving like a tidal wave, has a rock or boulder stuck blocking the water as if now a dam has been created that is about to blow because the pressure of the water has built up. The water needs to be constantly changing, moving because energy is constantly changing.

I never truly thought about how energy worked until the Universe began to show me how we are all energy, energetic beings. To many that have a difficult time understanding how can energy healing works? This is my attempt to try to explain it and our emotional centers, our chakra system in the simplest terms possible. We are made of mainly water, water being one of the greatest conduits for energy to flow. So I use a water analogy quite a bit. And if you compare our emotions to the storms, the stillness, the peace, the beauty of different bodies of water such as the ocean, lakes and rivers you can see how we are not different from nature but intertwined and very much part of what we see in nature and the cosmos every day. When a storm is brewing inside of us, we can also see how that is being played out in weather and what is taking place on a broader scale and going on collectively. There is so much that we know instinctively without having to go outside for our information because all our wisdom and greatest knowledge is within us.

Much of what I write is from experience, is my inner wisdom just working through me to get the messages out. To help others understand that there is not just a select few that can tap into this, we all can. Just sometimes we need to weed out the garbage first and allow our life force energy the chance to work through us to create the lives we always wanted, to feel free from fear and not let it get the best of us. We all have the capability to self heal and I have experienced this and witnessed it first hand. As an energy healer, I am not healing anyone I am just holding space as I witness God/Source heal and awaken your inner healer.

The Root Chakra is our first chakra (it’s our home base) at the base of our spine, the legs and feet. Our root chakra helps us to stay grounded, think of your self standing like a tree. If the trunk of the tree is rotting, weak and the roots are not well nourished the rest will not grow, it is not stable. The root is what gives us our stability, helps us feel safe, secure, a feeling of walking on stable ground. If we do not have a solid foundation than things can crumble literally and metaphorically in our being and in our life. Our root and lower chakras are where our family stuff resides. So if there are undealt with emotions, fears, insecurities, than unfortunately we can feel like the world is against us, have lack of trust in the outside world which really is lack of trust in ourselves. Fear and old negative family beliefs are running our lives. When you begin to strengthen your root chakra, the base and foundation of your being and your life with flourish like a well rooted and grounded tree.

When activated we can walk our talk, get on our life’s true purpose and path, create our own unique life experiences from a grounded place. So stay grounded, go outside walk barefoot in the grass, sit at the base of a tree, go into the ocean, play in the sand, take deep breaths and most importantly begin to take notice of the unwanted patterns that may stem from your families beliefs that perhaps they taught without knowing why (inherited unwanted family patterns) and if it doesn’t hold true to you then begin to create your own belief system, one that feels authentic to you. Write and journal your fears, insecurities, where your lack of self worth may stem from, old childhood wounds that you shoved deep, get rid of them.

Acknowledge they are there because most likely they are showing up in difficult ways whether you like it or not. Take time to meditate on them, use quiet time to breathe through these painful moments and memories. It can feel scary to face them but I have learned that if we don’t they will continue to show up in uncomfortable ways. When we make space for the pain, we can then release it so we are not constantly living in panic, fear and chaos (not knowing when it will show up). I meditate but realized recently that with intention during meditation I asked for my pain and sadness to show up in those moments during meditation so I could acknowledge them, allow them to surface at that time with the intention to let it go. This way I created the space for the pain so it wasn’t showing up during inconvenient times, like spending time with friends, at work in the middle of a meeting. Or out of the blue having panic attacks because again this part of us just wants acknowledgement and our bodies want us to be healthy, it wants us to heal and is trying to let us know now is the time. Isn’t it nice that you can actually make that time rather than it taking over you.

I love Reiki energy healing because it works to rid the body on many different levels of old stagnant, stuck energy and allows our life force energy to free flow the way it is meant to. If you are feeling stuck, contact me to schedule a session.