Give yourself permission

Begin to really look at your habits and what you do on a day to day basis. Where do you focus a lot of your time and energy? Where are you energetically? Are you physically at home but your thoughts are at work, with your kids, your ex, etc? Are you a person that feels it’s not right to sit (equate that to laziness)? Do you have a difficult time giving yourself a break? Do you feel guilty when you rest as though if you are not constantly moving than you will get in trouble? Have you ever complained and used the phrase “I feel like I’m a slave to my kids or spouse” (could be that you actually set up a slave contract prior to incarnating that needs to be broken). If so, it’s now time to become aware of our patterns and intentionally do the opposite. In the middle of the day you could stop the busyness, lay down, take a nap, watch a funny show, read a book, do the opposite of what you normally would do and allow yourself to rest.

Give yourself permission to do nothing (what feels like non action is really a huge energy shift towards self-love). And ask your soul to help you with this, ask why do I have such a hard time allowing myself rest? The answers are there, you may receive them while walking, in meditation, doing the dishes but once you begin to ask, your soul will provide you with the answers because all the answers to your questions are already within you. Usually if you are asking a “should I do this ______? What I’ve been told is if I am asking it is usually so. Something to think about. The same goes for the opposite if you are a person that makes excuses, spends a lot of time watching t.v. or doing nothing perhaps it’s time to move your body, go for an intentional walk, clean out a draw or closet.

We cannot change our habits by continuing doing the same things, we need to either add or subtract something in our lives and we cannot receive the answers from the same consciousness that created the “problem”. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Well this is similar to that and although I don’t think we need to be hard on ourselves while trying to make these positive changes, as it has been so deeply ingrained in us to the things we do. Change is not easy but possible.

Subconcious Beliefs

I have taken a moment to step back even more, to dive deep and do the much needed inner work, a time to really slow down (I didn’t know it was even possible to slow down even more), to be with my family, to continue to exist, be and in this beingness I have found that I am whole and complete. That despite the break from “working outside of the home”, a lot of internal work has taken place. There is no manual to life but when we connect with the true self we are our greatest guide, we can remember our truth and unlearn the beliefs that no longer hold true, no longer work for us, we tap into our intuition and allow The Universal Energy to guide us (knowing now we are the Universe).

I have felt the Universe within, the collective, the ups and downs, the sadness, anger, fear as well as the love, the expansion and through a lot of self love and radical self care have experienced the integration of the Ego, the falling away of the false belief system. Can step back and be the compassionate witness. The ascension process that I’ve heard so much about has literally played out within me from descension to working my way up. I have ascended from inner pits of hell the ultimate fear to heaven the ultimate love. I have never read the bible but my understanding is we are “it”, we are the stories, the stories being metaphors for how we ascend, how we live life, to be the co-creators, the masters of our own lives connected to source. As we all are taken on this journey through ascension there may be some fearful emotions that come up, life may be difficult, or you can ride the wave surrendering the whole way knowing all is here and showing up in your life for you to help you.

Either way, now I understand when I was told by my higher self, the highest aspect of self, my guides and Angels (which are really all layers and aspects of me, of self here to help on this journey of remembering) that I am a seed planter, a way shower, a light worker. I realize I am exactly where I need to be so I can help someone that may be a day behind me, a month, year, etc to help bring guidance and healing into their lives. Realizing with every channelled message written or spoken there is a healing frequency that comes with it. I was told I would heal with my messages, sound, color, in many different ways. But it wasn’t until my breakthrough in May that I now understand what that means. In the midst of it I was told to go to my blog, as I was in extreme fear I began to read and something amazing began to happen, I began to lift up, raise my frequency, I was wrapped in an orb of light. I was being shown part of why I am here now.

The attached audio was recorded a couple of months ago (after a lunar eclipse) but goes so perfectly with this message I am ready to share now. Since then there is so much I want to share about how I have gained so much more inner strength, feel amazing, balanced, free and joyful (and you wouldn’t believe some of the stuff that has taken place, it’s like a test from the Universe to show me once I really truly love myself, have a solid consistent practice that includes Kundalini Yoga, amongst other tools and really committed to my wholeness, the outer world stuff can’t touch me, it no longer rocks me because I know the truth of who I am, my power and my worth).

Thank you for being a part of my journey. I love you! So much more to come. Exciting!!!!

Staying Balanced/Grounded (1st chakra: Root Chakra)

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We have many chakras within our body and in our subtle energy bodies as well. The seven main chakras, when balanced will have us feeling great joy, empowerment, love for self and others, feel connected to each other, feel in flow, life can feel easier, synchronicities are easily spotted like the Universe is constantly connecting the dots for us and bringing forth what we need next at any given moment. Abundance in all areas of life is felt, our awareness is broadened, we can take moments to pause and not be so reactive, feel a sense of total wellbeing, whole and complete. We can breathe long deep breaths, feel relaxed, grounded, energized and just have the total mind, body, soul connection in perfect coherence.

Think of our seven main chakras like spinning wheels within the body and the spine is what connects them all (the central location/ central nervous system). Imagine a tube of water of light that encases the spine that is in the center of our being it drops into the earth and connects to the light at the core of the earth and goes through the body out through the crown of our heads up above and connects to the light of the heavens to the source of all creation. This tube of light and the water that flows wants to be free flowing a constant, peaceful movement like a river. If we are out of balance it means the water is either stagnant, moving like a tidal wave, has a rock or boulder stuck blocking the water as if now a dam has been created that is about to blow because the pressure of the water has built up. The water needs to be constantly changing, moving because energy is constantly changing.

I never truly thought about how energy worked until the Universe began to show me how we are all energy, energetic beings. To many that have a difficult time understanding how can energy healing works? This is my attempt to try to explain it and our emotional centers, our chakra system in the simplest terms possible. We are made of mainly water, water being one of the greatest conduits for energy to flow. So I use a water analogy quite a bit. And if you compare our emotions to the storms, the stillness, the peace, the beauty of different bodies of water such as the ocean, lakes and rivers you can see how we are not different from nature but intertwined and very much part of what we see in nature and the cosmos every day. When a storm is brewing inside of us, we can also see how that is being played out in weather and what is taking place on a broader scale and going on collectively. There is so much that we know instinctively without having to go outside for our information because all our wisdom and greatest knowledge is within us.

Much of what I write is from experience, is my inner wisdom just working through me to get the messages out. To help others understand that there is not just a select few that can tap into this, we all can. Just sometimes we need to weed out the garbage first and allow our life force energy the chance to work through us to create the lives we always wanted, to feel free from fear and not let it get the best of us. We all have the capability to self heal and I have experienced this and witnessed it first hand. As an energy healer, I am not healing anyone I am just holding space as I witness God/Source heal and awaken your inner healer.

The Root Chakra is our first chakra (it’s our home base) at the base of our spine, the legs and feet. Our root chakra helps us to stay grounded, think of your self standing like a tree. If the trunk of the tree is rotting, weak and the roots are not well nourished the rest will not grow, it is not stable. The root is what gives us our stability, helps us feel safe, secure, a feeling of walking on stable ground. If we do not have a solid foundation than things can crumble literally and metaphorically in our being and in our life. Our root and lower chakras are where our family stuff resides. So if there are undealt with emotions, fears, insecurities, than unfortunately we can feel like the world is against us, have lack of trust in the outside world which really is lack of trust in ourselves. Fear and old negative family beliefs are running our lives. When you begin to strengthen your root chakra, the base and foundation of your being and your life with flourish like a well rooted and grounded tree.

When activated we can walk our talk, get on our life’s true purpose and path, create our own unique life experiences from a grounded place. So stay grounded, go outside walk barefoot in the grass, sit at the base of a tree, go into the ocean, play in the sand, take deep breaths and most importantly begin to take notice of the unwanted patterns that may stem from your families beliefs that perhaps they taught without knowing why (inherited unwanted family patterns) and if it doesn’t hold true to you then begin to create your own belief system, one that feels authentic to you. Write and journal your fears, insecurities, where your lack of self worth may stem from, old childhood wounds that you shoved deep, get rid of them.

Acknowledge they are there because most likely they are showing up in difficult ways whether you like it or not. Take time to meditate on them, use quiet time to breathe through these painful moments and memories. It can feel scary to face them but I have learned that if we don’t they will continue to show up in uncomfortable ways. When we make space for the pain, we can then release it so we are not constantly living in panic, fear and chaos (not knowing when it will show up). I meditate but realized recently that with intention during meditation I asked for my pain and sadness to show up in those moments during meditation so I could acknowledge them, allow them to surface at that time with the intention to let it go. This way I created the space for the pain so it wasn’t showing up during inconvenient times, like spending time with friends, at work in the middle of a meeting. Or out of the blue having panic attacks because again this part of us just wants acknowledgement and our bodies want us to be healthy, it wants us to heal and is trying to let us know now is the time. Isn’t it nice that you can actually make that time rather than it taking over you.

I love Reiki energy healing because it works to rid the body on many different levels of old stagnant, stuck energy and allows our life force energy to free flow the way it is meant to. If you are feeling stuck, contact me to schedule a session.

New Moon Energy

As we enter into this New Moon energy of May 2019. Allow the light streams to lift us up in vibration, to embody more of our Divine truth. Allow the streams of Consciousness, the downloads to awaken us to our next level to embody compassion, to be the witness of the beauty that is life, as Heaven on Earth. Call in love in every moment, to be the Divine I AM being you truly are. Let love flow in from above, below and all around us. Stand fully in your Soul’s true essence. Now is the time to allow your mind to rise up into your high heart and be as one.

I Celebrate me

Today I celebrate myself, my kindness, my big heart, my quirks, my goofiness, my creativity, my thirst to uncover the answers to the big questions (my inquisitive mind), the fact that I follow my heart more than the Ego’s limiting rapid stream of thoughts that are untrue. I celebrate my gifts of connecting to a higher power, my intuition, to Angels, that I can clearly hear, see, feel and know that there is more that exist than what most can sense.

I celebrate as I walk outside and stumble because I am too busy looking up at the sky, the birds, trees, the clouds, the twinkling of lights as the energy of the Universe shows itself to me, knowing that I am powerful. My energy has turned lights on, has made the power go out, has created color all around me, in the different shades of the loving compassionate color of my aura that is pink, that I am able to have soul connections, feel the unconditional love flow through me. I know without a doubt there is more to life than what most can see, I have been fortunate to reconnect with grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, friends, all I had to do was go within and get into my heart and from that space anything is possible.

I celebrate me. My genius, my love for all, the time I have taken to heal old shadows and know it is okay to feel. I love to feel joy but I also love a good cry, so I celebrate all parts of me as well as my emotions that I came here to feel and heal. I make a promise to do my best, to not play small but stand tall in my truth, the true self in my light. I will no longer dim my light because I make other’s uncomfortable, because perhaps they are not there yet, in fact for those I turn on the flood flights to shine even brighter. Excited for their awakening, so that they can see the world with the same love and wonderment that I have been awoken to.

Self Discovery

Are you operating in the now? Are your decisions based on what is right in front of you? Or are you unconsciously making a decision today based on past fearful outcomes, past judgements and out of fear of how others will perceive you? Unknowingly, projecting fear into your life and into the lives of others. Constantly giving advice based on fear because of the conditioning and programming that is so ingrained into our psyches that if not aware of it and not willing to make changes, we will continue living in fear, anxiety, lacking trust in almost everything we do and everyone. Have your children begun taking your projections of fear and have implemented them into their lives, their behaviours, taking your stories and making it theirs?

Begin to really become aware, start really asking “why am I doing this?”, Am I trying to control someone because I feel they need to be fixed but not willing to look at your own neurotic behavior? As a person who spent years feeling a need to save everyone or worse wanting others to change to fit into a box that I thought was how we are “supposed” to be and act, not until I began on this journey of self discovery, realizing being spiritual doesn’t mean I am exempt from things happening to me, it just means I don’t make excuses anymore and when I do I catch myself. That is what awareness is about, we witness our behaviors and can easily begin to see if they are ego/fear based or from love/our higher aspect of self.

I was guided into healing for all the wrong reasons (but then again a higher power knew the motive had to be something that would trigger me to my core to want to pursue it, my children). When I thought there was a problem and thought I could fix it, heal it, heal our family, knowing now if it weren’t for me getting on a healers table to see what it was about before I put my own child on one, the healer the whole time saying nothing was coming up for my child but a whole lot was coming up for me. I remember the comment, “her fears come from you, you are not intentionally doing this but they are yours” and even then I didn’t want to take responsibility, how could I, I couldn’t see it at the time, so I couldn’t receive a message like that. I just wanted my baby fixed, someone help her to feel better. And so it began. What I thought was her journey was mine (so damn smart she knew it at the age of 8 years old, that her mom needed to come to the realization on her own, that I am worthy of love and needed to learn how to love myself).

We will always be lead to where we are meant to be. Not everyone will get “it” in this lifetime but I have a feeling a lot of people that once asleep are waking up and when you are ready, I will be here. Begin your journey of self discovery, become aware of how you may be living unconsciously.

Compassion

Audio- Self Compassion

Listen to the attached audio message regarding compassion. Release your guilt, shame, insecurity, fear and begin to have compassion for yourself and others. Make the changes in yourself to see the change you want in your life and learn to have more compassion in the process. Is the love you know true love or is your love conditional, obsessive, self-sacrificing, distorted, controlling? Are you sending out love that is defined by the programming and conditioning that you learned or are you giving yourself and others Divine Love!

The body (Go within & stay grounded)

Ask Why am I doing this? Listen to the bodies answer!
The body is the sacred temple

Where I am now as I deepen my connection, I love my body even more. Sometimes we can get really caught in the head trip of meditation, expanding our awareness, rising to new heights to connect with the Divine. Which is great and there is nothing wrong with it, since we do want to rise up and expand. Life is supposed to be a joy ride, explorative, we receive guidance, sensations we didn’t know were possible, our senses heightened without taking an outside substance. Just you, your breath and God. But we are here having this human experience in a physical body and although we don’t have to be so attached to form, to be present in our bodies is to be human. Our bodies our 0n this journey just as much as our spirit and our soul in human form.

It took the Universe pulling my awareness back into my body, reminding me that my power is greater in my sacred temple because within, in the Now is where I connect to that all loving, genius, creative, limitless presence and essence (God is not outside of us but within us). In the beginning of my spiritual journey, where I wanted a deeper connection with God, with my higher self, I wanted to understand my purpose, why I was here, how I could serve and I heard the most beautiful voice lean in and say “Go within and you will find purpose”. Go within, not outside but within. And the more grounded I am in the body, the more I do this, hands on my heart, on my body and breath the more profound my connection is with the truth.

I have attached two audios one about our bodies being the sacred temple to connect with the Divine. And the other to listen to your bodies ques. We all have a Yes sensation (for me expansion) and a No sensation (for me contraction), it is our subtle body shifts, our intuition at work. Begin to ask, to listen by feeling what the body is telling you. Not with the logical mind but the mind, the heart, the soul, the connection to the whole you through the body.

Follow your intuition

Writing is one of the greatest ways I can express my creativity, it’s one of the ways I connect with the highest aspect of self. The way the words come out faster than I can write at times. I do a lot of inspired writing, some call it automatic writing. Where you allow the words to flow through you instead of trying to control what comes out. Through mindfulness, meditation and other tools and practices I have tapped into my gift of intuition, given the most beautiful and funny messages at times. And this is something everyone can do, in the beginning I suggest the best way to receive that free flow of inspired writing is right after meditation when you are still in your heart, centered and grounded. As I began my 11th journal this is what was written through me:

Here we go again, another book (journal)? This time I will have it all organized but they are my thoughts, feelings, revelations, messages, tools, meditations, affirmations, my sanity, how do I organize all of that and more? I called in “FOCUS” and heard a voice say “Are you ready to begin?”….I had to laugh because Focus was very….well…. FOCUSED! I hear, amongst other intuitive gifts so I can call in just about any part of me and probably hear, feel or sense that part that has been called on. Compiled all these pieces of self is “me”, in trying to figure out who I am, why I am the way I am, how did I transform from a person that made fun of people like me (judging in all kinds of ways) to now very aware, wanting, needing to know how to take these gifts, creativity, humor, energy and serve. Surrender, let go but also become the co-creator of my life while going with the flow. I hear “Read the books! To create yet another one and not have reviewed 1-10, C’mon, keep this one as the book of tools”.

Again I am clairaudient so I hear parts of me, as well as other sounds with my psychic hearing. But even if you can’t hear with your spiritual ear yet, you can feel, sense or know. Follow your inner GPS system, figure out how you receive that pure loving all knowing intuitive guidance. Do you feel relaxed, ask a question and the answer pops in your head right away, get a tingling feeling on the top of your head, through you body, (hairs on your arms stand up), feel your heart expand, feel inspired a moment of relaxed yet excitement like you have to jump into action. Sit still and breathe, ask your guides or highest self what would yes feel like for me and what does no feel like? Whether you realize it or not you are intuitive, we all are and however you receive your internal guidance, your “YES” when you are in flow, in alignment with all that is, your inner creative joyful, loving, all knowing genius within, when you are connected to the higher power within you, it is the light bulb switch that lights up energies and gives you your full body Yes! Follow it see where it takes you.